bluegodism
the rose is blue š¹š
- Nov 26, 2023
- 94
to give some context, i believe in the law of assumption. neville goddard, manifestation and etc. i actually disagree about it being a law but here is not the place to discuss that.
the point is: i have a lot of intrusive thoughts about surviving the attempt and i'm afraid of attracting/manifesting them. i definitely DO NOT want to survive. every day is torture. i just want to die ... i probably have ocd but i don't think this situation fits into either type which means i don't even know what to search on the internet to find methods of dealing with this.
i'm just very afraid of failing again.
the point is: i have a lot of intrusive thoughts about surviving the attempt and i'm afraid of attracting/manifesting them. i definitely DO NOT want to survive. every day is torture. i just want to die ... i probably have ocd but i don't think this situation fits into either type which means i don't even know what to search on the internet to find methods of dealing with this.
i'm just very afraid of failing again.