Asprex
There is no storm we can't weather!
- Mar 3, 2023
- 28
Hello i shall make an introduction since its my first post here. I go by the name Kena ( not my irl name) and I've lost my mother to cancer 5 years ago. That's what messed my life up and eventually led me here.
Idk if this is the correct forum to post this but here I go: I used to be a pretty social child not extremely social but enough. As years went by after my moms loss I became inclosured to myself. I stopped going outside having friends. And turned to the internet for company and support. (Big mistake ig). I love my online friends don't get me wrong but it just doesn't seem right sometimes. Its been pretty depressing and i had been self harming for two years. 2022 June my father found out and i had to stop and visit a therapist once to make him stop worrying. At least he settled and stopped telling me to go outside. I have stopped since November which was the last time i did something to myself (drained blood with a syringe if curious). And things i guess have been going well since then. Im still a student and get good grades. I live in a pretty bad environment my grandad (father's father) is very abusive not that he can harm me but he has spoken to me and threaten me a lot in the past also abused my grandmother a lot. Its pretty depressing here. Now that's not an excuse for not being social i know but thats the best i have. I have attached an image of some message that has been in my mind for some time and i can't really believe that someone with a brain wrote. Note that i have done nothing to that person barely even spoken with them (friends of friends).
Sorry for the scattered information i had to write this twice sadly. Go easy on me :)
Idk if this is the correct forum to post this but here I go: I used to be a pretty social child not extremely social but enough. As years went by after my moms loss I became inclosured to myself. I stopped going outside having friends. And turned to the internet for company and support. (Big mistake ig). I love my online friends don't get me wrong but it just doesn't seem right sometimes. Its been pretty depressing and i had been self harming for two years. 2022 June my father found out and i had to stop and visit a therapist once to make him stop worrying. At least he settled and stopped telling me to go outside. I have stopped since November which was the last time i did something to myself (drained blood with a syringe if curious). And things i guess have been going well since then. Im still a student and get good grades. I live in a pretty bad environment my grandad (father's father) is very abusive not that he can harm me but he has spoken to me and threaten me a lot in the past also abused my grandmother a lot. Its pretty depressing here. Now that's not an excuse for not being social i know but thats the best i have. I have attached an image of some message that has been in my mind for some time and i can't really believe that someone with a brain wrote. Note that i have done nothing to that person barely even spoken with them (friends of friends).
Sorry for the scattered information i had to write this twice sadly. Go easy on me :)
