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Loverboy2000

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Jan 22, 2025
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Hello Everyone!

I am very new to this so apologies in advance if I say something not ideal. Essentially I am here because I got out of a 6 year relationship back in November and since then my life has been for lack of a better word, shit. I loved this person with all my heart and was looking forward to engagement in 2025, but they broke up with me. I guess I was at fault too because I was dealing with my own anxieties which led me to taking the relationship for granted and I lost the one person I loved the most.

Since then the thoughts of not being with this person and the thoughts of just living a life without them has been tormenting me. I can't complain much because my life has not been bad. I was bullied in middle school and was very much depressed then and had also attempted once, but things started to get better in high school and then I met my person which made my life 1000 times better. Now that this person is gone I am not sure how to live anymore.

Everyone says time heals everything and you will eventually move on but the issue is I never had any doubts about this and since this had ended I have lost trust on everything and everyone. At this point I am just passing time and waiting for SN and just getting myself together to ctb.

I know this might not be a good enough reason but my depression has come back, I hate getting out of bed, even though I try to go out and do anything and everything to just get over but it's not working. I can't explain to my own parents what I am going though cuz their understanding is that you should just get over it and start living your normal life. My friends also left me because they ended up choosing my ex over me in the communications and now here we are.

Anyways thanks if you made it till the end. Just a rant. I am fairly new so can't dm anyone but feel free to talk and reach out. Hopefully we all find the peace we are looking for!!
 
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human909

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Dec 30, 2024
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Welcome here, I understand what losing someone that meant the whole world to you feels like. That is partly because i am here to who had similar experience to you instead is by getting rejected even though that person is always on my mind 24/7 and i can't imagine life without her. My experience on this site so far is extremely well, people here are willing to help out everyone here to get to peace or if someone prefers recovery. I prefer peace, that being said i want to wish you another warm welcome to this site.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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May 21, 2023
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Welcome to the forum!
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find peace from the suffering as well, I wish you the best.
 
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