Hello, I do not like being, I find that experiencing anything only for the sake of entertainment is a repelling foundation of life and that what I do want is to not experience. There is no meaning that is independent from the consumption of experiences, making everything completely pointless without intrinsic value in that. Life tends to be far more unpleasant than not too, personally it's especially so because accumulating negatives makes deprivation which needs compensation, it requires motivation that requires goals which almost always requires an interest in serving entertainment in one way or another, directly or indirectly as a prerequisite. It's contradictory to find purpose in assisting the amusement of others without finding meaning in entertainment no matter the receiver. Regardless, what occupies the time essentially every day is maintenance like every chore that is repeated daily and hobbies similar to that which I quite statically prefer, such as playing video games, reading or watching whatever online and reading about specific topics on more specific websites like this one. The case remains that favorable change cannot be assumed to be gained by aimless continuation but from resolute planing in accordance with one's own values and knowledge. I'm a 20-year-old male from Europe and am currently continuing to adapt to my circumstances, to await the time that is right to me with a certain approach that is sure to work because death is permanent and the choice should preferably not be hindered or otherwise inappropriately applied by desperation or inability, such as in the form of failed attempts. Meanwhile I'll also be sharing my thoughts here on this forum, feel free to talk to me about anything.
Living for nothing that's of any personal significance is like working an abhorrent job 24/7 for no payment, even if there was a big payment it wouldn't be of any use since there would neither be time to assign for anything else nor anything to purchase that would motivate living, life is in that regard a futile chain of undesirable expensive products. It's absolutely awful, unacceptable and intolerable in the long term.
I'm for bodily autonomy. To control your body's management unlike both its initial existence and properties which fundamentally cannot be controlled, similarly to how you can choose to act in accordance with what you want but not choose what it is you want, is that which is basic in human nature, it would be a double standard to have a right to live with autonomy without a right to die on your own terms.
As for death, some have an agnostic view that says it could mean anything to be dead, but they don't follow any religion to ensure not being eternally punished after life in case that religion is true, which I deduce as meaning that it's unreasonable to account for skepticism based on the impossibility to relate instead of realism based on science. It's identified that the brain and the mind are correlated. If the brain is damaged then the function of the mind may be damaged as well. The mind is generated by the brain and is therefore annihilated with the brain's full cessation of function, to not experience would resemble permanent sleep, no other interpretation has any proper scientific basis and is therefore not credible.
I will never cause anyone's existence, there is nothing to be gained for the one who is created to create needs to then try to satisfy and maintain them regardless of the results, somehow existing without going in some kind of futile cycle by only doing less would still not serve any interest outside of consuming experiences or just existing. I will however closely consider accomplishing the exception of once and for good satisfying my need to finish all needs, my greatest and desirably final desire.
Non-existence to me isn't a sacrifice in regards to anything else, it is my ideal.
