myhoney
they/them, Honey
- Mar 3, 2026
- 11
Hi yall quick tw for SH and stuff, dont want to encourage relapsing from others.
first time on a forum like this. its actually kind of refreshing to see how many people think just like me. tagged as venting because theres some heavier stuff here.
I'm always surrounded by optimists in my life. It feels like everyone has hope for me, but I just can't bring myself to believe them. I'd rather be somewhere where people actually understand how I feel and (judging by what I've seen by lurking so far) feel the same. Its really refreshing. As someone with autism, it gets really difficult to notice how people actually feel, so the straight forwardness of forums like this really eases some of my discomfort with some of the irl 'normies' I interact with. Not to bash on my irls, but it feels like they all just put up a facade of encouragement instead of acknowledging that maybe I'm just not fit for the life I have right now. SI has kind of become part of my normal daily life, but I'm too afraid of pain (not looking for methods rn, sorry n thnx) to do anything. I just struggle with a lot of self harm, usually its because I kind of have a weird thing called autovampirism (ive been that way since I was a kid, used to pick my scabs and like the blood lol) but sometimes its because I just can't help myself. Hopefully I don't sound too much like a weirdo or anything, I promise I'm not on here just to be edgy. I genuinely just want to just be in a community where people are actually realistic about stuff like this.
Thanks for having me, and thanks for reading.
first time on a forum like this. its actually kind of refreshing to see how many people think just like me. tagged as venting because theres some heavier stuff here.
I'm always surrounded by optimists in my life. It feels like everyone has hope for me, but I just can't bring myself to believe them. I'd rather be somewhere where people actually understand how I feel and (judging by what I've seen by lurking so far) feel the same. Its really refreshing. As someone with autism, it gets really difficult to notice how people actually feel, so the straight forwardness of forums like this really eases some of my discomfort with some of the irl 'normies' I interact with. Not to bash on my irls, but it feels like they all just put up a facade of encouragement instead of acknowledging that maybe I'm just not fit for the life I have right now. SI has kind of become part of my normal daily life, but I'm too afraid of pain (not looking for methods rn, sorry n thnx) to do anything. I just struggle with a lot of self harm, usually its because I kind of have a weird thing called autovampirism (ive been that way since I was a kid, used to pick my scabs and like the blood lol) but sometimes its because I just can't help myself. Hopefully I don't sound too much like a weirdo or anything, I promise I'm not on here just to be edgy. I genuinely just want to just be in a community where people are actually realistic about stuff like this.
Thanks for having me, and thanks for reading.
