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Socaku

Socaku

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Mar 20, 2022
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I have found again my inner peace after I decided to ctb.... SN will be my method..... What about you?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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For me, peace does not exist in this life, I will suffer until I cease to exist. I will only be at peace when I am dead as I will be incapable of suffering then, nothing can hurt me. In my case I am trapped in this world as it is so hard to leave. I never feel relaxed, I never feel anything positive, I only feel sadness and misery.
 
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Socaku

Socaku

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Mar 20, 2022
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I can't feel anything too.... I am just calmer since I tried and since I have found this site..... It's not easy to discuss with anyone.....I have some unfinished business and soon I will try again....
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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I'm glad to hear you've found inner peace. I can only recall finding that once recently. Today I have time off and so far it's just filled with the usual dread/anxiety, and lack of interest to do anything with nothing appealing and no idea what to do.
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
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I have found again my inner peace after I decided to ctb.... SN will be my method..... What about you?
That will be my method too. I wish I could feel peace but I can't, just sadness.
 
symphony

symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
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I have found again my inner peace after I decided to ctb.... SN will be my method..... What about you?
I hear this is pretty common. Once we're no longer warring with ourselves, once we know there'll be an end to it all in the near future, we can finally feel relief. I don't have a set method or date yet, I'm not even 100% sure I will ctb, but even so I've gotten a taste of that peace when I allow myself to imagine the end.
 
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Angi

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Jan 4, 2022
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I hear this is pretty common. Once we're no longer warring with ourselves, once we know there'll be an end to it all in the near future, we can finally feel relief. I don't have a set method or date yet, I'm not even 100% sure I will ctb, but even so I've gotten a taste of that peace when I allow myself to imagine the end.
Same for me. In fact, I have planned several suicides for me and it has provided a lot of relief. I do not think I will set a date and publish it here, I think this would feel like putting pressure on myself, but who knows?

Also, being able to talk about suicide here has contibuted a lot to my mental peace. I started from a pretty bad place, so I am still far from "peaceful", but it certainly helps to share here.
 
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Lost Magic

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May 5, 2020
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Love this post. Yes, I want to find inner peace and try to lose all sense of attachments to my body and worldly possession. I want to 'try' to forgive myself and others and free myself from this world. I am looking forward to my ctb day.
 
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