I have access to almost anything. Looking for more than alcohol, been wishing I could and on the brink for a long time and things are looking to fall apart enough to bring me to 99%. Looking for a substance that'll bring me to 100% as I'd had to have the urge enough and not be able to see it through.
I didnt ask to get better
Booze and benzos are probs the best option Id say, but worth doing some selt testing and seeing how diffrent things effect you.
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- Apr 15, 2022
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Ecstasy (MDMA)? Not sure if it would lower fear-of-death inhibitions, too, if someone were suicidal.
Daxter777
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- May 22, 2023
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Benzos. Before my body got use to them all my fear was gone with a proper high enough dose. Too much and you roofy yourself. If i had sn id probably have drank it without a second though.
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- Aug 15, 2025
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Pure X will make you orgasmically euphoric and want to live. The only X that will help with this deed are the dirty ones that kick you in to deep depression when the MDMA in them is wearing off.
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- Apr 15, 2022
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Not sure if being orgasmically euphoric and wanting to live are mutually inclusive for everyone.
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- Aug 15, 2025
- 171
I've been as suicidal as the next person for my entire life, but pure X is one of the few things that ever momentarily lifted me out of it.
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