Venting In another world, I never existed

[SnowyWeather]

My life is so absolutely pointless and meaningless that if I never existed, the world would be exactly the same.

No person in my life would be any different personality wise, and I've never had an impact in any community I've ever been a part of

honestly, I think it's even more pathetic that all this is true while I interact frequently with many people. If I was a loner, my nonexistence changing nothing would seem obvious, natural even. My interactions with these people are just so empty and meaningless that I serve no purpose being on this earth. I'm just a waste of space

the alternate world where I never existed is probably better even, my behavior hasn't hindered any progress in the lives of others as some of my actions have done.


I'd rather just disappear from all of space and time than kill myself.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Cool title and interesting thought.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Have you ever watched: 'It's a Wonderful Life'? I haven't seen it but, I'm aware of the plot. A man about to commit suicide is interupted by an angel to show him what the earth would have been like without his life.

It always struck me as odd really. Because- if we'd never existed, people simply would live slightly different lives although- it's debatable what sense of loss they would experience. Seeing as we didn't ever exist so, there was nothing to mourn after.

I don't know how much of a comfort it would be if we'd really changed people's lives for the better either- necessarily. Not through any act of personal achievement, some of the people in my life have told me they were grateful for me- my existence. Mainly I think as a stand in/ reminder for the people they lost- my Mum for one. That doesn't make my life any easier though. Like- I'm glad they think it worked out well for them. Doesn't necessarily mean it did for me. And, I feel trapped here by them. So- to some extent, maybe it's a- be careful what you wish for. Being needed isn't always enough to make us happy. It can be enough to trap us here though.

What I think is more depressing is- even if our lives didn't make a vast impact- our deaths still might. It can't be nice to have to deal with a suicide. So there- I definitely agree with you. I wish I'd never existed. Not only to escape life but to also void the need for my suicide and the consequences of that.