LackOfDetermination
Nothing Without Determination.
- Sep 2, 2025
- 60
Somehow, through the repeated trials, failures, pain, and hurt, I only feel alive on the edge. Maybe it's due to the escapism, the procrastination, or some sick masochistic part of me that makes me come back to life in both intellect and energy whenever I have my back to the cliff face.
Anyway, that's not really what I was originally going for when I opened this site up... So I'll move on.
Ever since I can remember, the idea of being constricted in any way was terrifying to me. Just as much as space terrifies me, in fact. Maybe it's due to the time I broke my leg and was stuck in bed (or on the floor in a pallet? Unclear.) watching bob the builder till I felt like I was going insane back when I was 4. Maybe, it's the feeling of stagnation. After all, space and being locked in a straightjacket are no different in practice.
In space the proportions of distance and size are way overblown, so no matter how much you move with your puny body, you are practically completely still, just as if you were immobilized. Kinda like the imprisonment Gojo went through lol.
Somehow, I still love going under the covers and pretending I'm in some pocket dimension away from the worries of the world.
Somehow, I fall asleep easily now. The me of today dies not having to worry for tomorrow, and the me of tomorrow will die for my slothfulness.
Anyway, that's not really what I was originally going for when I opened this site up... So I'll move on.
Ever since I can remember, the idea of being constricted in any way was terrifying to me. Just as much as space terrifies me, in fact. Maybe it's due to the time I broke my leg and was stuck in bed (or on the floor in a pallet? Unclear.) watching bob the builder till I felt like I was going insane back when I was 4. Maybe, it's the feeling of stagnation. After all, space and being locked in a straightjacket are no different in practice.
In space the proportions of distance and size are way overblown, so no matter how much you move with your puny body, you are practically completely still, just as if you were immobilized. Kinda like the imprisonment Gojo went through lol.
Somehow, I still love going under the covers and pretending I'm in some pocket dimension away from the worries of the world.
Somehow, I fall asleep easily now. The me of today dies not having to worry for tomorrow, and the me of tomorrow will die for my slothfulness.
