Venting Imsodeadicantreachthespacekey

[Kimmi.rikudotnet]

i am hanging on by a thread.

i feel like an empty shell. I dont kow what i am supposed to do. I hate this body, that empty body of mine doesnt feel like mine. I feel like an alien, like someone from a different planet. I wanna love, i wanna feel good, but i cant with this body. I can't keep it alive any longer. I feel like a phone thats barely working but still kept and used by its owner. i feel so heavy writing this, my fingers are so cold, as if no blood runs through them. My nose also hurts from how cold it feels, so so so cold...
I wonder what will trigger my body finally being freed. i am so confused right now. I am thinking so much, yet nothing at all. I probably sound so disoriented right now. My hands hurt so much. My room wont heat up. im so upset because why does my room, out of all rooms have to be so cold. Why not the other rooms.
• i wanna love, i wanna talk more but my fingers hurt so much, i can barely hit the keys..ksjd tyduigwjgdviudfyhvzvx hsdcfsvkeyboardspambht my fingershurtsmimcrywing

 

[sos]

have you ever felt this way