uwufox777

uwufox777

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I've developed some serious kidney and bladder issues with no hope of recovery.

Please DM me any possible ways that would help me not have to endure this meaningless suffering for longer than I need to.. I live in the US, and I would greatly appreciate it more than my words can express. I have no desire to stay around if suffering is all thats left for me, and I've tried my absolute best despite everything over the years that I've been here.

I would keep pushing despite everything else, but not being able to do anything but curl up into a ball in agony 24/7 is not something that I would wish on my worst enemy. Please help provide me with anything that could free me from this.
 
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Aug 12, 2019
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It's very evil of the pro-lifers who took away guaranteed suicide methods that those in extreme torture can use to escape their pain.

A dog in pain is allowed Nembutal. but a human has to suffer for years . we all die anyway. Every one had the right to escape suffering. but now we are trapped. they stole our right to escape unbearable pain. What's wrong with these pro-life idiots why are they so evil and ignorant? shows that humans can be brainwashed to believe anything even something so ridiculous and illogical that a human has to suffer for no reason and then die anyway as we all will die . That a dog can be allowed to be put out of it's suffering but a human has to to suffer extremely for no reason. so they are just prolonging unbearable pain . the result is the same for all humans , every human will die anyway.

With a painless method like Nembutal a person suffering can take a drink and fall asleep in 5 minutes. but since they banned that a person has to suffer for years and then be tortured to death anyway. either way we will die. the difference is that with a painless suicide method you skip over extreme pain and extreme suffering. the result is the same Death for all , non-existence forever for all no matter what.
 
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Where are you located. You might be eligible for assisted dying depending on your diagnosis.
 
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uwufox777

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It's very evil of the pro-lifers who took away guaranteed suicide methods that those in extreme torture can use to escape their pain.

A dog in pain is allowed Nembutal. but a human has to suffer for years . we all die anyway. Every one had the right to escape suffering. but now we are trapped. they stole our right to escape unbearable pain. What's wrong with these pro-life idiots why are they so evil and ignorant? shows that humans can be brainwashed to believe anything even something so ridiculous and illogical that a human has to suffer for no reason and then die anyway as we all will die . That a dog can be allowed to be put out of it's suffering but a human has to to suffer extremely for no reason. so they are just prolonging unbearable pain . the result is the same for all humans , every human will die anyway.

With a painless method like Nembutal a person suffering can take a drink and fall asleep in 5 minutes. but since they banned that a person has to suffer for years and then be tortured to death anyway. either way we will die. the difference is that with a painless suicide method you skip over extreme pain and extreme suffering. the result is the same Death for all , non-existence forever for all no matter what.

Where are you located. You might be eligible for assisted dying depending on your diagnosis.


I reside in the US.

I do wish that they took MAiD more seriously here, but I believe its only for patients that have a limited time left, and not so much for those with lifelong injuries like this. I could be wrong, and I really wish that I was, but I'm doubtful. We seem to have strict laws surrounding that here, despite some states having it in place for the elderly. I feel like this falls into a sort of grey area that hasn't been addressed by our healthcare system yet... although, I'm hopeful that it will be someday, even if its not for me. I never understood why its preferred to keep people alive in the state that I'm in. It really confuses me, but I'll stop complaining about it.

Thank you for the suggestion, though. I'm not opposed to flying out of the country to somewhere that would, but again, I'm not sure if the pain alone is enough to be qualified. :(

I'm sorry for spreading my misery here, I just really need help with either SN or a country that would put me down in the understanding that I can't function in this state anymore.

I'm definitely more afraid when not given the merciful option of something similar to MAiD.

I just wanted to add that I'm so sorry that you're going through something similar, pthnrdnojvsc. Its definitely messed up with the adamant pro-life mindset that seems to be the majority of people out there... Not having freedom of autonomy is a depressing thought in and of itself for me. So, if anything, I just want to say that I understand as much as an internet stranger can.
 
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uwufox777

uwufox777

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Just a bump in hope that someone has a resource for me. I'll wait 24 hours before I do any more of them... not trying to flood the forum with my post. Sorry, and thank you in advance.
 
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lifeisbutadream

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Just a bump in hope that someone has a resource for me. I'll wait 24 hours before I do any more of them... not trying to flood the forum with my post. Sorry, and thank you in advance.


When "Death With Dignity" asked where u live he meant what state do you live in. Some states - at least Oregon - has a "death with dignity" (assisted dying) law.
 
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I have a really bad neurological condition where my immune system eats away at the nerves All over my body. particularly in my extremities Where I can't quickly heal the damage like my hands, legs, ears, and The nerves in my face like my eyes and teeth. I lost Usage of my radar for about a year And had to do extensive physical therapy to try to recover it.

Truly I've been reduced to graveling on the floor due to this condition. I can relate to what you've been going through medically. I know some of the other members have probably already provided you with SN However if there's anything I can do to potentially bring you comfort through talking my DMS are always open.

I know In the United States there's a lot of doctors that have very little incentive to properly diagnose and treat your condition. I wandered around randomly for 10 years going from specialist to specialist before I discovered that the Incentives to actually get things done and provide you with proper care are far better in the teaching hospitals in cities. The best advice anyone gave me was to go into the city and interact with College hospitals conducting active research.

I know you've probably given up a lot of hope but I figured I would offer you this piece of advice regarding treatment on your kidney and bladder condition. Just like with my condition there's no cure but it's possible to potentially find relief in treatment.
 
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Aug 23, 2024
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I've developed some serious kidney and bladder issues with no hope of recovery.

Please DM me any possible ways that would help me not have to endure this meaningless suffering for longer than I need to.. I live in the US, and I would greatly appreciate it more than my words can express. I have no desire to stay around if suffering is all thats left for me, and I've tried my absolute best despite everything over the years that I've been here.

I would keep pushing despite everything else, but not being able to do anything but curl up into a ball in agony 24/7 is not something that I would wish on my worst enemy. Please help provide me with anything that could free me from this.
I feel your pain. I'm sorry for the physical chronic pain you have. It's 1:24 AM where I am right now and it keeps me up. I just want to fall asleep and not feel this chronic pain anymore.
 
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uwufox777

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When "Death With Dignity" asked where u live he meant what state do you live in. Some states - at least Oregon - has a "death with dignity" (assisted dying) law.
Oh.. Thank you for clarifying.. I'm in Pennsylvania.
I have a really bad neurological condition where my immune system eats away at the nerves All over my body. particularly in my extremities Where I can't quickly heal the damage like my hands, legs, ears, and The nerves in my face like my eyes and teeth. I lost Usage of my radar for about a year And had to do extensive physical therapy to try to recover it.

Truly I've been reduced to graveling on the floor due to this condition. I can relate to what you've been going through medically. I know some of the other members have probably already provided you with SN However if there's anything I can do to potentially bring you comfort through talking my DMS are always open.

I know In the United States there's a lot of doctors that have very little incentive to properly diagnose and treat your condition. I wandered around randomly for 10 years going from specialist to specialist before I discovered that the Incentives to actually get things done and provide you with proper care are far better in the teaching hospitals in cities. The best advice anyone gave me was to go into the city and interact with College hospitals conducting active research.

I know you've probably given up a lot of hope but I figured I would offer you this piece of advice regarding treatment on your kidney and bladder condition. Just like with my condition there's no cure but it's possible to potentially find relief in treatment.

I feel your pain. I'm sorry for the physical chronic pain you have. It's 1:24 AM where I am right now and it keeps me up. I just want to fall asleep and not feel this chronic pain anymore.

I'm really sorry to hear that you're both going through chronic pain issues, too. I just wish everyone could be okay. I don't understand why good people are allowed to suffer like this for no reason. It really makes me cry. I feel so stupid and naive to think that the world would have been fair to people. I'm sorry if my post came off as complaining. I wish I could take everyone's suffering away. I'm so sorry. I hate this cruel reality so much, and I wish nothing more than for either of you to not have to deal with that kind of suffering. Its 1:44 AM here, too.. so I guess we're on the same timezone.. and no, I haven't been provided with any resources @ SN. I got scammed out of $800 for fake N a couple years ago, so I'm starting to feel like its too good to be true to have something as backup anymore, but it would definitely be nice.

All I can say is that I'll be around if either of you need someone to talk to late at night, because I have trouble sleeping too. Thank you for the empathetic replies.
 
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Oh.. Thank you for clarifying.. I'm in Pennsylvania.




I'm really sorry to hear that you're both going through chronic pain issues, too. I just wish everyone could be okay. I don't understand why good people are allowed to suffer like this for no reason. It really makes me cry. I feel so stupid and naive to think that the world would have been fair to people. I'm sorry if my post came off as complaining. I wish I could take everyone's suffering away. I'm so sorry. I hate this cruel reality so much, and I wish nothing more than for either of you to not have to deal with that kind of suffering. Its 1:44 AM here, too.. so I guess we're on the same timezone.. and no, I haven't been provided with any resources @ SN. I got scammed out of $800 for fake N a couple years ago, so I'm starting to feel like its too good to be true to have something as backup anymore, but it would definitely be nice.

All I can say is that I'll be around if either of you need someone to talk to late at night, because I have trouble sleeping too. Thank you for the empathetic replies.

My neuropathy becomes really unbearable at night so I have a hard time sleeping. My autonomic nerves are totally destroyed. Particularly the ones that regulate temperature so my limbs just get hotter and hotter I lost the main benefit of being a mammal the ability to regulate temperature automatically.

I'm sitting here with a fan blasting cool air on my face as both of my ears are inflamed And feel like they're being cooked in a microwave. In addition to my air Conditioning Lowering my apt to 69 degrees Fahrenheit. My nerve damage is so significant it's just never enough. The winter helps but everyone runs heaters so I still can't be around anyone.

I'm sorry you get scanned for $800 That's a awful thing to have happen. Normally you can buy it for $20 or $30. I ended up buying it three times because I was concerned about new regulations taking place And the government pushing A new bill called the youth poisoning act. Restricting the sale of SN to anyone that's not a business.

By the way is lappland your favorite Ark knights character?
 
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My neuropathy becomes really unbearable at night so I have a hard time sleeping. My autonomic nerves are totally destroyed. Particularly the ones that regulate temperature so my limbs just get hotter and hotter I lost the main benefit of being a mammal the ability to regulate temperature automatically.

I'm sitting here with a fan blasting cool air on my face as both of my ears are inflamed And feel like they're being cooked in a microwave. In addition to my air Conditioning Lowering my apt to 69 degrees Fahrenheit. My nerve damage is so significant it's just never enough. The winter helps but everyone runs heaters so I still can't be around anyone.

I'm sorry you get scanned for $800 That's a awful thing to have happen. Normally you can buy it for $20 or $30. I ended up buying it three times because I was concerned about new regulations taking place And the government pushing A new bill called the youth poisoning act. Restricting the sale of SN to anyone that's not a business.

By the way is lappland your favorite Ark knights character?

Lappland is the reason I'm interested in potentially playing Arknights at all, lol. Yeah, I think she's great. I know I've expressed my own issues with chronic pain, but I can't imagine how that feels. I'm isolated for different reasons, but it must make life just as isolating from what you've said about not being able to really hang around other people for that long. :( If it helps at all, I tend to be awake at night too.. so, I should be around if you ever need someone to talk to. I just have an equal fear to that that I don't want to hurt you or anyone if something were to happen to me either. Idk.. Its confusing, and I feel so conflicted/guilty about that. I'm sorry. At the SN thing.. I was stupid and threw out the jar that I had a few years ago, thinking that they'd never ban it.. I've been so angry at myself since. I never got scammed for SN (I simply ordered it from Amazon years ago), only N because I was naive enough to think it was available.. and the scammer was all friendly. I can't imagine what kind of monster a person has to be to scam people out of N who are at their lowest. That kinda stuck with me. I'm feeling a bit defeated tonight.

Anyway, I'm going to try and relax and stop overthinking.. thank you to everyone who commented and tried to help.
 
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