Venting I'm worthless

[puella]

I can't make people happy or help them. I can't protect the people I care about. I'm useless to them, even if they still love me back. I wish everyone would get rid of me and have someone better.

I can't even focus when I play chess. I'm not good at anything—I'm just a high school dropout. I'm supposed to be good at chess, but I can't play at all when I'm emotional. It's like I'm looking without seeing; my brain is full of fog.

 

[NoHorizon]

I'm sorry you're suffering. I'm not very good at chess but I can imagine it's extremely difficult to focus on such a complex task when you have so much on your mind.

For what it's worth, I don't think you're worthless; your threads and posts in the recovery section have helped a lot of people.

 

[Rack.-]

I can't make people happy or help them. I can't protect the people I care about. I'm useless to them, even if they still love me back. I wish everyone would get rid of me and have someone better.

I can't even focus when I play chess. I'm not good at anything—I'm just a high school dropout. I'm supposed to be good at chess, but I can't play at all when I'm emotional. It's like I'm looking without seeing; my brain is full of fog.

I feel you so much!!!! You are truly a lovely and kindhearted person. And I relate too much as well to your feelings!! I'd love to play a game of chess with you if you want to ^_^

 

[Dangerdonkey333]

You are doing wonders for people here, myself included. You give a little bit of hope that people can have a kind heart, no matter how tortured their soul. I've said it once, and I'll say it again. I'm proud of you.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Worthless in the sense of deserving to die?

It takes a whole lot to reach that threshold and I don't believe you have reached it. By. humongous margin.

Are your friends relying on you to protect them?

Someone's love isn't contingent on someone making them happy or helping them all the time.

Something like chess requires a lot of focus. No grandmaster would play well in a very emotional state.

 

[flowers in the mist]

You seem genuine and sweet. Don't be too hard on yourself with helping or protecting the people you care about, that's a hard task.

I find it hard myself focusing on things when highly emotional, especially chess sounds like something easy to lose control of.

 

[carac]

What worth has any of us really? It's all for nothing in the end. There people in this world destroying the planet, destroying other people's lives, murderers, abusers, fraudsters. You are not one of those people.

 

[IWishToDie]

Try taking a break from chess. Maybe you're just burnt out. Best wishes.

 

[puella]

Try taking a break from chess. Maybe you're just burnt out. Best wishes.

It's been a bit better recently. I got to 2000 in bullet (1+0) chess this morning.