Someplace_nice
Member
- Sep 28, 2024
- 95
I just want to rip the bandaid off and say fuck it, I want to die but I'm really trying not to, usually I'm good but today I'm really struggling, I'm looking up my meds again thinking of when to do it and what to write to my husband. It really feels like I'm not able to continue I've been having urges for a while now. I hate living but I love it at the same time, I'm not sleeping at night anymore and my brain static is getting louder, I want out so bad! But I think of my husband and that usually helps but it's not pulling me back like normal, he's on his computer while I'm rotting in bed thinking of a way out. I can't take life anymore I can't take just staring at a TV all hours of a day anymore I want it to stop.
