broken_stoic
Wander till you find your place
- Aug 21, 2024
- 143
I really am. I'm in therapy with an actually amazing therapist. I'm playing the medication game again. I'm going to try TMS. But I don't know that I'll ever get back the life I lost, the life I was so close to having. and I'm tired of being me. My main thing is cptsd (but there are plenty others that come out of it and other things alongside it). This is one of those days when I just don't want to do it anymore. It's just too hard to know I might not have a future. I'm burning through savings I built up over the last ten years and will have nothing to show for it. I'm just surviving. And I don't want to be me anymore, it's just to heavy. I chose to try, but I want to be done.
