I'm too pussy to do it

[NoTimeToLiveOrDie]

I wanna keep this short...since 2020, i haven't been able to focus on studies, my grades have fallen year by year, i barely got into the college i am in right now, i have 5 subjects from my last semester to cover coz i couldn't pass, 2 subjects in which i am detained this semester, have been cussed at by my dad to the level i am ashamed of myself, i hate myself, the friends i have, i'm alone. I feel like a loser, i only have some good friends in hostel, the people in my class don't care for me, I'm overweight. I'm sick of everything, literally everything. Tonight i came to the conclusion that I'm probably better off dead coz I am no more than a burden to everyone and to myself. To cover the subjects in which i failed I'll have to appear for summer semester which will cost extra money. Before the next college session starts I wanna CTB so my parents don't have to be burdened anymore. I used to self harm too...but never had the courage to attempt to CTB. Can anyone please tell me a relatively painless way to do it. I'm sick of chickening out everytime.

 

[halleyscomet]

We can't tell you how to ctb as that would be against the sites rules, but there is a mega thread with a lot of resources on methods.

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, a few months ago I had to drop out of school due to how many meltdowns I would experience, so I can relate to how hopeless it can make you feel to be falling behind your peers. I also understand what it is like to be lonely, nobody irl really cares about me either, it makes me feel so isolated.

Whatever you decide to do, you're not alone and I hope you can find some relief from your suffering.

 

[LaughingGoat]

There are painless methods such as firearms, but SI will still be something that one would have to overcome regardless of method.

 

[Timothy7dff]

Have you tried Adderall? It amazing for helping you focus on school work. It's popular at some really good colleges.

 

[NoTimeToLiveOrDie]

We can't tell you how to ctb as that would be against the sites rules, but there is a mega thread with a lot of resources on methods.

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, a few months ago I had to drop out of school due to how many meltdowns I would experience, so I can relate to how hopeless it can make you feel to be falling behind your peers. I also understand what it is like to be lonely, nobody irl really cares about me either, it makes me feel so isolated.

Whatever you decide to do, you're not alone and I hope you can find some relief from your suffering.

thanks so much for understanding...and thank you for the input...i really hope you recover

Have you tried Adderall? It amazing for helping you focus on school work. It's popular at some really good colleges.

I'm in india and i don't think adderall's a thing here... i used to smoke a ton of weed before...but had to stop coz my doc yelling me to...i relapsed a while back coz i was mourning a death of a loved one...but again stopped...i'll od on something injectible...seems nice that way