Venting I'm tired

[RainLover]

I haven't ate in a week maybe, I just survive on liquids like tea, coffee and water, my friends know this and try offering me food in order to get me to eat, I no longer enjoy eating and I'm not satisfied when I do so. I get panic and anxiety attacks where I want to cut myself so hard, my parents shout at me everyday, even because of the smallest things. I feel cold, I feel physically and mentally tired, I just wish this will one day come to an end, yet it won't, I've tried 2 times to CTB via SN, still I can't get myself to drink that shit, like if a part of me enjoyed being like this.

I'm just hoping one day my body will shut off due to not drinking not eating and not sleeping properly, but of course, I highly doubt that happen. It would be awesome though

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd just feel so tired of it all, to me existing truly is so dreadful. But anyway best wishes.

 

[cookies]

Existing is exhausting. Sending