Venting I'm tired

[MusicGuy]

I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of trying to survive, of waiting, I just wanna do it ASAP, but I can't due to personal things that require me to be alive until August. I'll just do it as soon as I can on August. Probably will just call loved ones, send a couple messages, a couple emails and once that is done I'll CTB, I luckily don't have to worry about SI, because I spent a couple of weeks making my mind about jumping and it worked extremely well, apart from that, once all the emails and messages are done and I call whoever I call, there is no comeback, I can't say "Hey sorry about that, I changed my mind".

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of everything but it must be a relief having a method that you feel so confident in, I admire the courage of those who choose the jumping method. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[CountOfTuscany]

I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of trying to survive, of waiting, I just wanna do it ASAP, but I can't due to personal things that require me to be alive until August. I'll just do it as soon as I can on August. Probably will just call loved ones, send a couple messages, a couple emails and once that is done I'll CTB, I luckily don't have to worry about SI, because I spent a couple of weeks making my mind about jumping and it worked extremely well, apart from that, once all the emails and messages are done and I call whoever I call, there is no comeback, I can't say "Hey sorry about that, I changed my mind".

As someone who has tried to jump before, a hypothetical jump is quite different from an actual jump. I will never forget the way my heart started pounding and the sweat started breaking out as I approached the end of the edge of that hotel.

Regardless, I wish you the best of luck with whatever you choose.

What kind of music do you like, MusicGuy?
My account is named after a song.

 

[MrDarkness]

Ah I plan on ctbing before august or during. I gotta do a few things, clean up my room, write a note, buy a rope. Then I should be good

 

[day]

Sorry you have to prolong your suffering I know it's horrible. I hope you till then are able to be content.

Best wishes for your journey forward OP.

 

[MusicGuy]

As someone who has tried to jump before, a hypothetical jump is quite different from an actual jump. I will never forget the way my heart started pounding and the sweat started breaking out as I approached the end of the edge of that hotel.

Regardless, I wish you the best of luck with whatever you choose.

What kind of music do you like, MusicGuy?
My account is named after a song.

I know it will be different, I like to think about it as the last thing I have to do, just this last jump and everything will come to an end. About the music, my taste is quite undefined, buy I enjoy slow and simple music mainly