chargirl
New Member
- Mar 24, 2026
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Even after contemplating suicide for a decade now, the past year or so has been the worst of my life, and I'm more motivated than ever but it's still somehow not enough!!! Wow!!! I'm so fucking tired of making plans to CTB and not following through. It makes me feel like even more of a failure than many of my other glaring points of incompetence. I know I will continue to be a burden and a disappointment to everyone who has the displeasure of knowing me, so what's taking me so long to end this?
I mean, I need to conscientiously sell or donate all my belongings so that I don't leave a huge mess for my family, but I'm so exhausted that I can barely manage my basic daily work anyway, so how could I possibly handle a major declutter? Spring cleaning ought to include cleaning my despicable self off this mortal coil... :3 I gotta get the fortitude to do this reeeal soon, please...!
This is my first post. It feels strange to write like this in a public forum because I've never expressed these things so candidly hee hee
Thank you people for being here.
I mean, I need to conscientiously sell or donate all my belongings so that I don't leave a huge mess for my family, but I'm so exhausted that I can barely manage my basic daily work anyway, so how could I possibly handle a major declutter? Spring cleaning ought to include cleaning my despicable self off this mortal coil... :3 I gotta get the fortitude to do this reeeal soon, please...!
This is my first post. It feels strange to write like this in a public forum because I've never expressed these things so candidly hee hee
Thank you people for being here.
