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Hey Guest,
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This was a nice thing to hear about.. and I am happy for you!
Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Glad you neverr CTB but all them Like, loves and hugs do you feel like you should keep them, lol only winding you up, lol many of us will have the dreaded SI pop up in the final moments it's not easy to overcome but hang around and get as much information from us and the resources page and be prepared for the future.
Best wishes
Cheers
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Good4Nothing
Unlovable
- May 8, 2020
- 1,865
Welcome back!
No need to apologise. I know it's scary.
That's why I haven't been able to do it for 30 years. I'm scared, too. Nothing wrong with that.
Don't go through with it 100 times more - no one here will think any less of you. You're always welcome back.
Silver
The 21st century is when everything changes
- Aug 8, 2020
- 745
No need to apologise @sadworld, you're not a failure. Ctb is certainly a hard thing to do and there's no shame in backing out. I'm glad you're giving recovery a chance, I hope it works for you and your life improves
You don't deserve hate posts, I'm sorry to hear you are in so much pain. You have so many options and not being sure about this one doesn't reflect poorly on you. You are allowed to take your time, you are allowed to change your mind. I proud of you for speaking up, that it the first step to figuring out what you want and what is best for you. I hope this forum can be a place for you to learn and grow and make competent decisions. This is a place where people will understand and listen, you don't have to rush.
puppy9
au revoir
- Jun 13, 2019
- 1,238
@sadworld no need to apologize dear. Love you
LonelyDude15
Currently Spiraling
- Sep 26, 2020
- 277
No need to apologize, it's your life and we'll support you either way.You are NOT a failure at all. Like thters have mentioned here, it is your life and I am GLAD that you are giving it a 2nd go.Please always remember that YOU should make YOUR OWN decisions and NOT be influenced by anyone or any site/thing period. CTB is the most personal of decisions period. I have chronic 24/7 pain and if the time comes where the aspect of quantity vs quality of my life is more quantity then ctb is on the table, but it is MY decision and nobody elses.My 100% wish for you is all the love,caring and empathy that we all have here for you and again, YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE PERIOD. All the love and caring and empathy for you from all of us, your global family!!Last edited:Don't be sorry. Be glad that you still alive and make some people happy. So now you know that people care about your well being.
Your young, you have a life ahead of you. Give yourself a chance to get better. Get help. Be well and safe!!!
AJ95
24/7 sylvia plath
- Sep 3, 2020
- 478
It'sNotLookingGood
You Know I Couldn't Last
- Mar 1, 2020
- 221
Please don't feel bad! I'm sure everyone here who has even the slightest degree of empathy, can can understand<3
Suicide is no easy choice, and maybe Sunday was not the right time for you<3
Sending you peace and love<3 You are always welcome here<3 Personally, selfishly, I am glad you are still with us<3 You are genuine<3
Deleted member 23009
a flame dancing in the rain
- Oct 20, 2020
- 138
No matter if you decide to go through with it or if you will recover, we will be here for you. You're not an idiot or anything like that. Don't feel sorry or apologize. I think you're brave for being open about all of this and you shouldn't look down on yourself or blame yourself. I hope you won't be gone for too long because for the small time I've been here I've liked your posts and found you interesting! I understand if you need time though, and you should take all the time you need to gather your thoughts. We'll be here whenever you need us. That's my impression of this forum at least. I hope you're somewhat okay and I sincerely hope you find some peace with yourself soon
Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
I think it was your subconscious telling you that your time has not come. Deep down inside you really want to live and I think that is something you shouldn't suppress. Anyway, welcome back to the land of the living.
Delia
Cerulean star
- May 15, 2018
- 230
dw, same thing happened to me, honestly don't think you're a failure over such a turn of event just make the best out of that decision instead
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,869
Yeah, I am giving recovery a last try. We'll see how that goes...
Breadbfra
Specialist
- Jul 16, 2020
- 374
I'm so happy you're still here. You didn't do anything wrong and absoloutely not a failure...nobody is, after all. It's pretty natural to have your SI kick in, don't blame yourself :) I hope everything is going to fix soon. Take your time to recover, buddy :)
BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
- 1,456
Don't worry about not going ahead.
I had the same on Saturday. Although in my case friends were the main reason I didn't go ahead.
Regardless of what some people on this website may say, you're not a failure for not ending your own life!
You should have seen the reaction I got in my thread!
My PM inbox is always open to you.
The good ones on this site should get together and support each other.
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,869
Thank you so much! Yeah, I saw your thread and that's the reason why I was scared to post this.
BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
- 1,456
You mean you saw the reaction I got on my thread after I backed out, and it made you afraid of backing out because of the reaction you'd get from some people on this site?Thank you so much! Yeah, I saw your thread and that's the reason why I was scared to post this.
Just checking I've understood correctly?
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,869
Yes, you understood correctly. I thought people would tell me that I'm an idiot for playing with their emotions.
Ren Elsie Jewelria
I sneezed!
- Aug 30, 2020
- 366
No need to apologise at all. You're definitely not a failure or idiot. Horns up.
BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
- 1,456
Well that is exactly what happened in my thread.
Admittedly in my case I uploaded another thread the day before, but of course that does not justify the reaction or what was said, as others correctly pointed out.
This is supposed to be a peer to peer support forum, not a pro-suicide website.
Can you send me a PM?Last edited:
Breadbfra
Specialist
- Jul 16, 2020
- 374
I wish all the idiots playing with my emotions were like you lmao, you're absoloutely fine mateI'm seemingly in an almost identical position. I did not expect suicide paralysis at any time. I also planned to kms at a specific date earlier this year as you can read in my most recent post. I felt very ready the whole day until the rope was around my neck. I still plan to kms soon. Unexpected suicide paralysis is a real thing.
Panna
Enlightened
- Aug 31, 2020
- 1,005
I had thought you were gone, until I saw this thread. I know that this is late, but I'm glad you're still around, we haven't really interacted much but you're yet another person who is always all over the ss threads and it would be weird to see you stop posting. Parroting everyone else, you're not a failure, those things do happen, and I'm happy that you didn't just vanish afterwards. Welcome back.
toms_space_station
Alien Observer
- Jul 22, 2020
- 69
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