I'm so useless and everything.

[watereyes]

Just been feeling terrible like this for the past three years. I'm the most useless piece of shit ever. I can't get a job for shit I tried so hard before and now i just dont have the energy to do resumes and shit and do this all over again. I can't get my driver's license because I'm a rotten driver. Every time i drive i manage to fuck up the easiest shit. Nothing's worth it. i just feel so horrible and useless.
It's neither SI nor my loved ones nor some random last minute will to leave thats keeping me from dying. I'm just scared of a world of eternal suffering after my death. Like god will punish me even more or something. I just want ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS then ill finally have peace.
I don't want to die. I'm just suffering so much. I want the suffering to end but it cant. I just cant. I just suck.

I think ill try tonight but idk if i have the guts. I'm so tired

 

[deepsweetdiver]

I get you. I want to die because nothingness seems infinitely more peaceful than a complex human mind, but I don't think I would if all aspects of suffering were removed from this world. Eternal punishment is a big fear for me too, keeping my faith in God has been very difficult and I am slowly falling away from it which makes that fear worse. It's mainly what is keeping me here.

I wish I could tell you something better, but I don't have much besides that I relate to you and I'm here. Sending lots of love your way.

 

[CTB Dream]

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