Venting I’m so tired

[-nobodyknows-]

I've tried so hard to be better these past few months. I go out and try to hang around people. I've tried getting involved with some group stuff to try and tie myself on to something. But, in the end, nothing goes anywhere. People don't talk to me, and I'm way too cowardly to approach others. I'm still the same pathetic person I've always been. I hate myself for it. I wish I could be like some other people I know. They seem to shine so brightly. But, I don't think I'll ever be like that. I don't know how to deal with these feelings.