I have been very depressed since I was 14 or so and I'm now going on 26. My parents were young, flat broke and alcoholics when they had me. They just mainly fought and yelled and got drunk all the time. I basically raised myself and just focused on school. I was good at it and I thought it was my way out until late high school, depression, anxiety, self harm got much worse and my grades tanked. I barely got into college but still went, thinking it would help me get out, but I just wanted to KMS while I was there. I had a method planned out and everything.
Finally I decided to leave college and go to a mental hospital, essentially just daycare for adults, I didn't even speak to a therapist the whole time I was there. I was just treated like a prisoner and forced to share rooms with strangers. They sent me out with a huge medical bill and said good luck!
Well now I'm in fuck tons of debt: student loans, medical, credit card debt, personal loans, all shit I did to try to survive. But none of it seems to be worth it because I still just wanna die. I lost my job in December, so did my partner, and we've Barely been able to eat or pay rent since.
We may very well be homeless soon and things are not getting any better. My phone blows up constantly with debt collectors, my credit is fucked, and I can't find a job making more than $14/hr because I'm just an "unskilled" loser
I hate being lesser than everybody else because I'm poor and in debt. I'm sick of getting abused and yelled at for pennies at these customer service jobs and constantly told I'm worthless. Just because I don't have a college degree I should just die in the streets because I'm poor and useless. Even if I wanted to go back to school I can't afford it, and can't take out more loans.
Im doomed to be broke and in debt forever and frankly when you're already very mentally ill that's JUST not worth living through. The only things that's kept me here is how difficult it can be to end it without disabling yourself or spending a lot of money on supplies.
Finally I decided to leave college and go to a mental hospital, essentially just daycare for adults, I didn't even speak to a therapist the whole time I was there. I was just treated like a prisoner and forced to share rooms with strangers. They sent me out with a huge medical bill and said good luck!
Well now I'm in fuck tons of debt: student loans, medical, credit card debt, personal loans, all shit I did to try to survive. But none of it seems to be worth it because I still just wanna die. I lost my job in December, so did my partner, and we've Barely been able to eat or pay rent since.
We may very well be homeless soon and things are not getting any better. My phone blows up constantly with debt collectors, my credit is fucked, and I can't find a job making more than $14/hr because I'm just an "unskilled" loser
I hate being lesser than everybody else because I'm poor and in debt. I'm sick of getting abused and yelled at for pennies at these customer service jobs and constantly told I'm worthless. Just because I don't have a college degree I should just die in the streets because I'm poor and useless. Even if I wanted to go back to school I can't afford it, and can't take out more loans.
Im doomed to be broke and in debt forever and frankly when you're already very mentally ill that's JUST not worth living through. The only things that's kept me here is how difficult it can be to end it without disabling yourself or spending a lot of money on supplies.
