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gnomeboy17

gnomeboy17

Specialist
Feb 11, 2020
355
My SN just arrived. I really didn't think it would because I live in the UK. This is the first time I've felt genuine happiness since I was a young child. Although I don't have a date set, having SN allows me the choice, which helps me cope day to day knowing that I could end it at any time. I feel so calm right now.
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
Were the postage costs really high for you? I couldn't manage to find any so ended up ordering N.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I think I would feel the same if I had SN. I think it can be a relief having an way to exit this world at a time of your own choosing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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devin44

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May 24, 2019
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My SN just arrived. I really didn't think it would because I live in the UK. This is the first time I've felt genuine happiness since I was a young child. Although I don't have a date set, having SN allows me the choice, which helps me cope day to day knowing that I could end it at any time. I feel so calm right now.
What's your current situation, if you don't mind me asking? Have you tried therapy?
 
gnomeboy17

gnomeboy17

Specialist
Feb 11, 2020
355
What's your current situation, if you don't mind me asking? Have you tried therapy?
I've tried therapy a lot last year, I'm currently working on sertraline which has improved my anxiety significantly, I've just started uni which I'm enjoying and have made a lot of friends. I also have the most amazing boyfriend but I still want to die. I know it sounds silly when a lot of people have more significant problems. Although I am transgender (ftm) which obviously isn't an ideal situation
 
honig

honig

tired
Sep 28, 2021
19
mine just arrived as well :) it feels good to know that there's always this backup plan available at any moment

how do you plan to spend your last day once you've set date of exit?
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,205
I felt like you did as well when I got mine. Sadly (for me) the novelty of having it as comfort has worn off. I now just question myself as to why I haven't taken it already. Maybe I should just set a date.
 
Death is your gift

Death is your gift

Member
Oct 7, 2021
44
I received mine today.

Well, at least I received a product labelled as SN, but I need to test it to be sure that "this is it". I guess I will find the way to test it searching on SS. I did not open it for now, I am not sure on how to keep the product from the oxygen alteration. If it opened and close within minutes, will it be affected ? I guess the answer can be found here too :)

Then, if the product is good, what next still needs to be planned... But, yes, having ordered it and received it felt like a relieve. I cannot say for sure that I will use it, but it helps with the daily struggles to know that you have a way out.

Still need to define the detailed regimen though.
 
Kinarmi

Kinarmi

Member
Oct 16, 2021
18
My SN just arrived. I really didn't think it would because I live in the UK. This is the first time I've felt genuine happiness since I was a young child. Although I don't have a date set, having SN allows me the choice, which helps me cope day to day knowing that I could end it at any time. I feel so calm right now.
Hi i'm also in the uk but i'm struggling to find a source, would you mind emailing me where to order some please, i'll be forever grateful and i would say pm but my account isn't allowed to do that yet sadly.
 

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