I'm so FUCKING lonely

[JaegerBombastic]

I'm always alone every single day. I barely interact with anyone on a daily basis outside of momentary pleasantries exchanged between strangers. I have no friends, no girlfriend, and barely any family. I want to be with people so badly, but for some reason I just can't. I get so scared at the thought of actually meeting new people even though that's all I want. I feel like offing myself is the only thing I can do at this point.

 

[gottacheckout]

Hang around here a while, you might be surprised who you meet. Some of us are friendly

 

[Michelstaedter]

It's not advice, but if you think you'll die alone because of your fear of socializing, you might have the courage to try reaching out to people within a group who share your taste in something, be it anime, video games, movies, chess, or whatever.
I'm lonely and always have been. I've suffered from it in the past, but at some point I decided to meet people "like me," and it wasn't the best experience, not because they were "like" me, but because I never felt accompanied or happy. Also, bonds are usually temporary and fragile, unless you meet someone who truly appreciates you, but that's very difficult.

P.S. I won't commit suicide because of loneliness, but because with or without it, I feel terrible.
I'll quote the great Andrés Caicedo: "I'm terrified to think that my interest in everything is fading. I can't stand this loneliness; I seek company, and I can't stand company."

 

[ijbolijbol8979]

We can always talk if you need to. Sending so much love people here are so friendly :)

 

[Carrot]

Similar here, although I randomly got very close to a family member recently. What matters to be is to have a good romantic relationshiop though, being accepted by somebody who doesn't need to accept me, and a relstionship it the ultimate form of acceptance for me.

I have a lot of self-hatred. I know the solution is to fix my life and find something, a hobby or similar and I'll fijd somebody eventually. Instead I'm waiting for somebody to fix me (and being in a relationship did help me in the past), but that's not how it goes.

 

[SadBumblebee]

I feel you man. We can be lonely together

 

[xiaoxiongmao]

I am so depressed that I have trouble forming complete sentences/talking to people (it feels overwhelming and pointless) and hence have no desire to be next to another human (animals are great)

I also agree that loneliness is not a good reason to ctb… do you have any interest at all? A practical advice: volunteer at a cause you care about. I did animal shelters. If you don't care about anything in the world, then maybe that's a real problem

 

[katara]

Yup this is me. No boyfriend, no friends, only family I ever see is my mom who I live with. I haven't seen my cousins or anyone else in my family for years. Most people have no idea what this is like. I can't drive to see them, even if I could, I wouldn't, because I wouldn't know what to say bc I have nothing going on and I'm embarrassed

 

[JaegerBombastic]

It's not advice, but if you think you'll die alone because of your fear of socializing, you might have the courage to try reaching out to people within a group who share your taste in something, be it anime, video games, movies, chess, or whatever.
I'm lonely and always have been. I've suffered from it in the past, but at some point I decided to meet people "like me," and it wasn't the best experience, not because they were "like" me, but because I never felt accompanied or happy. Also, bonds are usually temporary and fragile, unless you meet someone who truly appreciates you, but that's very difficult.

P.S. I won't commit suicide because of loneliness, but because with or without it, I feel terrible.
I'll quote the great Andrés Caicedo: "I'm terrified to think that my interest in everything is fading. I can't stand this loneliness; I seek company, and I can't stand company."

This is part of it. I think about trying to do that all the time, but for some reason I can't. I don't really have panic attacks at all, but I start shaking and hyperventilating at the thought of meeting new people. I just have no idea how to get over this.

I am so depressed that I have trouble forming complete sentences/talking to people (it feels overwhelming and pointless) and hence have no desire to be next to another human (animals are great)

I also agree that loneliness is not a good reason to ctb… do you have any interest at all? A practical advice: volunteer at a cause you care about. I did animal shelters. If you don't care about anything in the world, then maybe that's a real problem

I mean I do have interests, obviously. But I also just feel this overwhelming sense of apathy towards everything around me. I don't really understand it. It's like the deepest part of my soul has just given up on everything and stopped caring. I still have hobbies and things that I enjoy doing, but I never feel good doing anything.

 

[hippiedeath]

I'm alone even around people. Always been this way. I give up. I know now it will never get better or change.