Venting I'm so fucking done....

[plzoffme]

My ISO is taking a little longer to get here because of the slow ass retarded postal service. Why can't things just go smooth for once? Why do I have to suffer even in the end? I just want to die already..... I am tired of family members who act like they care but do not take me seriously.... That's ok, you all are about to get a fucking wake up call.... You all should have fucking listened more to me, you should have taken me more seriously. People act like they care but they don't till its too fucking late! Well guess what? its too late, I hope all of you experience the fucking agony I have been through the past 8 years. You will feel my pain and know "depression is NOT made up" & Mental illness is real. Nobody gives a fuck till you are dead and that is the gods honest truth. After this is over they will be saying, Ohhh we did not see the signs.. Oh really? They were right in front of you Mom & Dad. This world is fucked... everything is fucked..... Can't wait to die

 

[MyShadow]

My ISO is taking a little longer to get here because of the slow ass retarded postal service. Why can't things just go smooth for once? Why do I have to suffer even in the end? I just want to die already..... I am tired of family members who act like they care but do not take me seriously.... That's ok, you all are about to get a fucking wake up call.... You all should have fucking listened more to me, you should have taken me more seriously. People act like they care but they don't till its too fucking late! Well guess what? its too late, I hope all of you experience the fucking agony I have been through the past 8 years. You will feel my pain and know "depression is NOT made up" & Mental illness is real. Nobody gives a fuck till you are dead and that is the gods honest truth. After this is over they will be saying, Ohhh we did not see the signs.. Oh really? They were right in front of you Mom & Dad. This world is fucked... everything is fucked..... Can't wait to die

Maybe it's time to take a step back to remember why you chose to CTB.

Are you exiting to stop your suffering or to punish others?

If you are looking to stop your suffering, then you will find peace. Yet, if killing yourself is only to punish others, then you have it backward. Situations change. Sometimes even people change, but permanently eliminating your future because you are angry at others seems counter-productive. Simply stated, don't punish yourself because of the stupidity of others

I have been reading your posts and respect your choice. Your feelings are valid. Life is full of unnecessary suffering and shitty, selfish people and I am planning my own death as well. It's just that this choice is final. It's truly the end, and I was hoping that you would consider your reasons clearly before you face your mortality.

 

[plzoffme]

Maybe it's time to take a step back to remember why you chose to CTB.

Are you exiting to stop your suffering or to punish others?

If you are looking to stop your suffering, then you will find peace. Yet, if killing yourself is only to punish others, then you have it backward. Situations change. Sometimes even people change, but permanently eliminating your future because you are angry at others seems counter-productive. Simply stated, don't punish yourself because of the stupidity of others

I have been reading your posts and respect your choice. Your feelings are valid. Life is full of unnecessary suffering and shitty, selfish people and I am planning my own death as well. It's just that this choice is final. It's truly the end, and I was hoping that you would consider your reasons clearly before you face your mortality.

I am choosing to CTB because of my own mental illness, but people in my life just make it worse :(. I am just tired of everybody and everything. People say its gets better
but for some people it does not. I have tried to make things get better and have done things to push things in the right direction but it always goes to shit and here I am at 0 again. I know who I am, I am a spiritual being inside a broken body. I want to be free from this and have peace. I do not want others too suffer, I just want my pain
to end.

 

[brokenspirited]

Best wishes to you.

 

[MyShadow]

I am choosing to CTB because of my own mental illness, but people in my life just make it worse :(. I am just tired of everybody and everything. People say its gets better
but for some people it does not. I have tried to make things get better and have done things to push things in the right direction but it always goes to shit and here I am at 0 again. I know who I am, I am a spiritual being inside a broken body. I want to be free from this and have peace. I do not want others too suffer, I just want my pain
to end.

I completely empathize with you