Venting im so done with school

[mossmoth]

im so done. im going to fail all my classes and i don't know what to do. i don't i cant do anything. i wish i had a method but i don't. at all. god fuck i NEED to work on schoolwork NOW. RIGHT NOW. BUT I CANT MY BRAIN WONT LET ME. its SUPER easy stuff. i SWEAR. a presentation if my values is first. theres LITERALLY a template. its EASY. why cant i DO it. god fuck im so fucked why cant i ctb why why why fuck
i just need to write a couple things. why cant i do it. im so absurdly fucked. i cant fail these classes they end in less than a week GOD WHY

 

[mossmoth]

update. classes are over. if i pass it's okay if i fail im actually going to consider ctb. I feel so fucking dramatic, im on edge, PLEASE let me pass oh my lord

 

[derekWest]

Have you see your GP ? Or therapist ? Maybe some sick leave can help you ? Stay safe and do nothing impulsive.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

update. classes are over. if i pass it's okay if i fail im actually going to consider ctb. I feel so fucking dramatic, im on edge, PLEASE let me pass oh my lord

Look, I'm assuming that you are in university and if so then failing isn't the end of the world. At most, you might be put on academic probation or maybe on academic suspension, assuming that you haven't been put on it before. If you fail, try looking into doing summer courses and also try talking with your academic advisor to look into any resources that can be used to help you with your school work.

I also have trouble completing basic school work because I'm a lazy person, so I kind of get it. I would also advise maybe looking into any mental health resources that your uni may offer as well.

 

[FakeProdigy]

I'm about to fail every single of my classes this semester. The problem with depression is that it prevents you from doing a lot of things, no matter how easy they are. At least for me, it's like a mental blockage that I can't get passed of. Don't bum yourself out too much, school will be there later. You should probably try to figure out what's preventing you from working properly. Reach out to a counsellor or something.

 

[mossmoth]

Have you see your GP ? Or therapist ? Maybe some sick leave can help you ? Stay safe and do nothing impulsive.

I do not have a GP or therapist, and cannot tale sick leave. I moved to a new continent in 2024 and haven't gotten to anything like that

Look, I'm assuming that you are in university and if so then failing isn't the end of the world. At most, you might be put on academic probation or maybe on academic suspension, assuming that you haven't been put on it before. If you fail, try looking into doing summer courses and also try talking with your academic advisor to look into any resources that can be used to help you with your school work.

I also have trouble completing basic school work because I'm a lazy person, so I kind of get it. I would also advise maybe looking into any mental health resources that your uni may offer as well.

I live with my parents in a country I am LEGALLY not able to get a job. They pay for all my classes (750$ for a 4/8 week class). I have free time 24/7. If they find out I failed a class I'm absolutely screwed. There's no reason for me to be failing classes, I don't know why it's so hard for me. i KNOW i can't waste money yet i AM

I'm about to fail every single of my classes this semester. The problem with depression is that it prevents you from doing a lot of things, no matter how easy they are. At least for me, it's like a mental blockage that I can't get passed of. Don't bum yourself out too much, school will be there later. You should probably try to figure out what's preventing you from working properly. Reach out to a counsellor or something.

I think? that it's ADHD or something. I have all of the textbook symptoms besides hyperactivity. I've never been able to grasp deadlines. At All. And I can't focus or sit down and it makes my life a living hell.

honestly it's a dream to get some sort of medical help for this, but that costs money and time and understanding this country (I am from the USA, moved to Europe in 2024)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I live with my parents in a country I am LEGALLY not able to get a job. They pay for all my classes (750$ for a 4/8 week class). I have free time 24/7. If they find out I failed a class I'm absolutely screwed. There's no reason for me to be failing classes, I don't know why it's so hard for me. i KNOW i can't waste money yet i AM

They likely aren't going to find out about you failing your classes, at least not straight away. Since you are in post-secondary and you are an adult, the school will likely be contacting you about anything in regard to your academic standing, not your parents (at least that has been my experience). Depending on how your grades were before, you might only end up on academic probation. If that isn't the case and you end up on academic suspension then it will likely only be for a semester the first time around.

How is your relationship with your parents? On the chance that they are likely to find out, the only advice I can really give is to be open with them about this and about your mental health struggles. Of course, I also understand that this isn't easy to do and that not everyone lucks out on having parents who are understanding of these kinds of struggles. If you feel safe enough around them then it might be good to open up about your mental health issues and talk about how it's impacting your academics.

If not, then you can try going to academic advising and talking to them about what to do from here and maybe see if they can get you in touch with any mental health resources that the school offers.

 

[mossmoth]

They likely aren't going to find out about you failing your classes, at least not straight away

This is correct, and honestly, they might not find out ever. I can pay for SOME classes with a summer job (legally allowed on the military base), and can just… not tell them. Ever. If I fail this class I am NEVER failing another one, I literally cannot do this to myself anymore. There's no reason for them to find out unless I tell them.

Depending on how your grades were before, you might only end up on academic probation. If that isn't the case and you end up on academic suspension then it will likely only be for a semester the first time around.

I have no idea what academic probation is. Hopefully I will not have to know.

How is your relationship with your parents? On the chance that they are likely to find out, the only advice I can really give is to be open with them about this and about your mental health struggles.

Okay. Not horrifically bad, not great. I try to talk to them 2-3 times a day so they don't get worried about me. I don't do nearly as much cleaning and family activities as I should and they get annoyed at that.

If not, then you can try going to academic advising and talking to them about what to do from here and maybe see if they can get you in touch with any mental health resources that the school offers.

My school isn't a school in the typical sense. I go to the education center on an overseas US military base in Europe. It is not a university. Just a small building where some professors teach. They do not offer mental health resources. I do not speak the language here, there is no IRL support for me.

pass or not, i should be fine. I was really blowing this out of proportion, it's not the end of the world. thank you for your patience and helping me through thinking it out.

 

[13i77312$w33t]

im so done. im going to fail all my classes and i don't know what to do. i don't i cant do anything. i wish i had a method but i don't. at all. god fuck i NEED to work on schoolwork NOW. RIGHT NOW. BUT I CANT MY BRAIN WONT LET ME. its SUPER easy stuff. i SWEAR. a presentation if my values is first. theres LITERALLY a template. its EASY. why cant i DO it. god fuck im so fucked why cant i ctb why why why fuck
i just need to write a couple things. why cant i do it. im so absurdly fucked. i cant fail these classes they end in less than a week GOD WHY

Don't let school dictate your identity!!!! I've done it just to feel relevant because my existence is only important if I can make money for my parents right? That's how it's felt for years and I'm pushing 40 soon. I want money to leave this hell and go to a different country or something. I fantasized about marrying for freedom, not love—— just to leave this hell of a reality.

I need to leave this small town. I tried joining the military but I can't bring myself to lie on the application about my mental health. I have anxiety and depression….. but it is probably due to being forced to live with my abusers.

I have been financially raped and I can't even buy my own way out… I am willing to be someone's whore at this point to leave.

Or I can always jump off a building. I'm trying to ignore these feelings of suicide myself because there doesn't feel a way out.