I’m so alone, I give up

[Liebestod]

I've never been more alone in my life. I can't get myself to die even though I have everything I need. I miss one person in particular but things are awkward between us now and I can't bring myself to text her. Everyday I'm just going through motions all alone. I swear this person was the only thing that made me feel a sense of purpose in life. But that doesn't matter now. I wanted to die for so long and still do but now I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. I've legit been alone for so long now I can't even interact with anyone and it's not like I was ever good at that anyway. I just hope one day I actually go through with ending it all.