Venting Im sick

[Green_Ghost420]

I am stuck in the endless cycle of weed, cutting myself, and just feeling bad about myself and I can't fucking take it anymore, I have so many regrets that I know

, no mater what I fucking do they'll always be there looming over my head endlessly till I just give my life up and I feel like I'm ready to tale that big step but I'm also terrified of doing that. I can't seek out help because I'm scared that when I get help they'll take away my weed which is basically my coping and with how long I've been doing it I personally tweak out if I don't have any so I think it just a good idea to leave everything and everyone around and leave the current state I'm in and explore before finally just ending it all.

 

[lastsunset]

Just letting you know I recognize that cycle! For me it just became less intense through time. Super weird to me still but it did. Maybe try to wait it out a bit?

I just started smoking less and less each week and now I don't crave it that much anymore.

Saying that while just smoked a spliff haha