Venting Im scared

[AnotherStatistic]

I hate being alone, having no one to talk to. I've lost my voice, cant even ask for help at this point. Even writing anonymously doesnt help - this is the 4th draft.

I feel trapped, even outside feels fake. I just want to be free of this, for better or worse.
I just need permission, i dont want to leave them hurt.
This feels like mortal limbo, no direction i go offers an exit…

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I hate being alone, having no one to talk to. I've lost my voice, cant even ask for help at this point. Even writing anonymously doesnt help - this is the 4th draft.

Hello @AnotherStatistic,
I think you've suffered a lot - I'm so sorry.
On this forum there are people who are altruistic,
So if you are comfortable with, please tell us your story.

Are you looking for ways to go?
In this forum, it's your choice.
But you also have somebody to talk.
I hope you regain your voice.

Welcome to Sanctioned Suicide,
Where very few people judge you.
Because we acknowledge your right to decide -
I hope this forum will be the place you can turn to.

(Sorry for being a bit weird )

I feel trapped, even outside feels fake. I just want to be free of this, for better or worse.
I just need permission, i dont want to leave them hurt.
This feels like mortal limbo, no direction i go offers an exit…

Are you afraid of hurting people when you go?
Many people here share this fear, I think...

 

[AnotherStatistic]

I went to the doctors, i need adhd meds. Probably overshared but they cant stop me.
Its not even my doing, these thoughts are with me from when i wake to when i sleep. Hopefully i can save up for my method , i dont want to use a backup, but its taking too long.
7 months.
I dont know if thats enough time, i cant face failing again

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I went to the doctors, i need adhd meds. Probably overshared but they cant stop me.
Its not even my doing, these thoughts are with me from when i wake to when i sleep. Hopefully i can save up for my method , i dont want to use a backup, but its taking too long.
7 months.
I dont know if thats enough time, i cant face failing again

Hello, and sorry for my late response.

Are you planning to overdosing ADHD meds to CTB?
If you're going to overdose them, please make sure you research them well (sorry if you have done.)
Generally speaking, overdosing meds is notoriously unreliable method to go.