I'm scared lol

[liberty_222]

Hearing the exceptional cases of failure with N and SN really scare me. I mean I want to do it but i feel like I'd fail? And if I fail that's gonna be worse because i wouldn't have the kind of freedom i have rn. I would probably be kept a check on. Ugh I'm scared i wish someone could just do me in.

 

[dyingalone123]

Ugh same here. I need like agonizing pain similar to Chockles to really go ahead and end it.
Survival instincts will Fck me up for sure

 

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Those thoughts went through my head as well when i was on the verge of drinking N. It was a form of SI imo since you can't be 100% sure a method will work but it's as close as i'll get. Rationally I know if i consume N or even SN the chance of me dying is almost 100% without intervention but in the moment when SI kicks in those thoughts go out the window.

 

[Quiet Desperation]

Be mindful of selection bias. The only people who post are the ones that fail.

Failures seem to fall into three categories: being discovered (self report or others), insufficient dose (taste or SI), or early vomiting. In several years of watching I've seen perhaps two threads that don't fit these criteria.

 

[dyingalone123]

This may be controversial but having a separate section for goodbye posts would be better. I feel like I can muster up courage if I see others Ctb peacefully.

 

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This may be controversial but having a separate section for goodbye posts would be better. I feel like I can muster up courage if I see others Ctb peacefully.

can always post this as a recommendation in forum suggestions.

 

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Honestly it would be nice to see videos of young people passing peacefully and showing the entire video and not just when they fall asleep. They always say he passed sometime after but they never say how long

 

[liberty_222]

Be mindful of selection bias. The only people who post are the ones that fail.

Failures seem to fall into three categories: being discovered (self report or others), insufficient dose (taste or SI), or early vomiting. In several years of watching I've seen perhaps two threads that don't fit these criteria.

Yes exactly. And I'm worried about SI or getting caught because i know I've given into it during my previous suicide attempt when i was 13. But it's been 6 years and now i know i have a personality disorder but i can't say for sure how I'd react in the moment.

 

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Be mindful of selection bias. The only people who post are the ones that fail.

Failures seem to fall into three categories: being discovered (self report or others), insufficient dose (taste or SI), or early vomiting. In several years of watching I've seen perhaps two threads that don't fit these criteria.

Care to share the two outliers? I'm intrigued. Also how many posts have u seen with vomiting n?

 

[Quiet Desperation]

Yes exactly. And I'm worried about SI or getting caught because i know I've given into it during my previous suicide attempt when i was 13. But it's been 6 years and now i know i have a personality disorder but i can't say for sure how I'd react in the moment.

Ah, I got you. I have too, and many others here so you aren't alone in that. It's okay to feel that way.

Care to share the two outliers? I'm intrigued. Also how many posts have u seen with vomiting n?

I understand the curiosity, but I don't really want to encourage the fear and anxiety that is always lurking just under the surface around here. I'm sure you understood, but just to beat a dead horse my point was more about how exceedingly rare such things are. I've never read someone claim they failed because of vomiting N without one of the other factors.

 

[ddd1234]

Those thoughts went through my head as well when i was on the verge of drinking N. It was a form of SI imo since you can't be 100% sure a method will work but it's as close as i'll get. Rationally I know if i consume N or even SN the chance of me dying is almost 100% without intervention but in the moment when SI kicks in those thoughts go out the window.

Did you open the bottle?

 

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Did you open the bottle?

I only removed the metal part, not the rubber stopper.

 

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Ah, I got you. I have too, and many others here so you aren't alone in that. It's okay to feel that way.


I understand the curiosity, but I don't really want to encourage the fear and anxiety that is always lurking just under the surface around here. I'm sure you understood, but just to beat a dead horse my point was more about how exceedingly rare such things are. I've never read someone claim they failed because of vomiting N without one of the other factors.

What do u mean by other factors?

 

[ddd1234]

I only removed the metal part, not the rubber stopper.

Ok... do you plan to do it again?

 

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Ok... do you plan to do it again?

yes.

 

[Quiet Desperation]

What do u mean by other factors?

I was referring to my original reply, specifically:

insufficient dose (taste or SI)

that has come up a few times recently. Can't say as I recall any other kind of N failures tbh.

 

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I was referring to my original reply, specifically:

that has come up a few times recently. Can't say as I recall any other kind of N failures tbh.

Honestly I haven't seen many not enough n posts. And there are not many dosage guides. And as for factors do I mean being found?

 

[liberty_222]

Try and update us if possible

What you say is true. Also me personally i believe nothing people say . i 'm going to do SN for me. i trust SN . Fuck everything, fuck life = getting old.

 

[okaoki]

same here im jumping from 8th floor im really scared rn , i hope to overcome SI and fear and falls head first.
i don't have other places to jump

 

[FuneralCry]

I am scared of failure as well, nobody should have to resort to methods that could fail in the first place, we deserve the option of euthanasia as that cannot fail. We deserve a right to die but the society tries to force us to live. I wish you the best.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/members-attempting-with-sn-success-failure.22018/

Around 119 fatal, 15 non fatal. So about 85% success rate in that thread alone.

Don't have many N anecdotal stats here but I'm assuming it's around 90%+(likely higher)

If you've researched and prepared, you shouldn't focus on the rare failures