HappinessEmbodied
Depressed Bitch
- Apr 21, 2022
- 32
Oh god, the peace I will feel. The pain will be gone. My suffering vanquished. This weekend, my boyfriend and I will travel out of state and to a secluded, private location to mix our SN and exit this world. The pain has become unbearable. I don't know if I will succeed, but I will feel better trying. Even if I am hospitalized, at least I tried. Even if I am institutionalized, at least I tried. We are keeping a backup of SN in a location where it won't be confiscated. All we've got are SN and benzos. We'll have extra prepared doses in case of vomiting.
As with anything, there is no guarantee it will work, but I don't feel like such a coward anymore. I am 100% committed to trying even if it doesn't work. Something has to give. We've already written our notes and will be printing them out to leave next to us.
They may try to revive us, they may try to stop our deaths, but they cannot stop us from trying, that is the one joy this disgusting, horror infested world cannot take from us. We are in control. The chance won't be taken from us. Fuck the world for trying to prevent this, for trying to make this more difficult. I hope the decomposition of our bodies serves as a brutal reminder to any who see them that they are the ones truly powerless, as we will no longer be.
Let it be known that I love him and am excited to hold him as we venture into the light together :)
As with anything, there is no guarantee it will work, but I don't feel like such a coward anymore. I am 100% committed to trying even if it doesn't work. Something has to give. We've already written our notes and will be printing them out to leave next to us.
They may try to revive us, they may try to stop our deaths, but they cannot stop us from trying, that is the one joy this disgusting, horror infested world cannot take from us. We are in control. The chance won't be taken from us. Fuck the world for trying to prevent this, for trying to make this more difficult. I hope the decomposition of our bodies serves as a brutal reminder to any who see them that they are the ones truly powerless, as we will no longer be.
Let it be known that I love him and am excited to hold him as we venture into the light together :)
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