I'm ready to ctb now/Any cup noodle recommendations?

[nootthenoot]

Context: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/fucked-up-today-may-push-up-the-date.101817/

Yeah no, shits been getting worst. Now I'm even more excited to ctb this Friday. My counsellor somehow didn't give a shit about me being on the verge of ctb, and instead gave me a bunch of bandage solutions. I can't call my mom to take me to the hospital because she will just yell at me. Dad's unreliable, all my friends can't do much. I'm fucked.

I'm going to be honest with you guys, since this is the only community of people that actually gets it. Part of me wants to be helped. That's the part that is telling everyone about this, and hoping someone will take me seriously enough to tell me to go to the hospital. But another part knows I can't be helped. I'm too deep into depression, and I'm too stubborn to accept any help given to me. I don't even know if getting admitted will help me. At this point suicide is my only option. I welcome this fact, and I accept the fact that this is the only option I have.

Tomorrow after my classes, I'll go out and get some snacks for the big day. Probably will be a bunch of candy, and cup noodles for my last lunch. I want to be a celebration of my life. This will be a final happy moment for me. The darkness deep down will always be there, but I want to feel a fleeting sense of joy. I will also buy a small thing of coffee so I can stay awake tomorrow night. And an early bday present for my little brother ^^

So yeah, I'm basically going to use this as a 'goodbye' thread. I would rather have it more light-hearted than other threads like this here, just because. Anyways any cup noodle recommendations? I'll rather it be something you can microwave, though it doesn't have to be.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

My guy have you heard of:

 

[seewell]

Shin black is fantastic. There is a spicy version as well, if you are into that.
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[nootthenoot]

My guy have you heard of:
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I have in fact heard of those! Never tried, them, but I wish I have. Idk if they sell that at the store near by my school, but I'll be on the look out!

Shin black is fantastic. There is a spicy version as well, if you are into that.
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Ah yes, the holy grail of ramen noodles. I will probably go with the spicy version of that, I'll see what they have in the store ^^

 

[JAlexa]

Shin Ramen is great. However, if you're in the mood for something different, I recommend JFC Japanese Style Udon Noodles. Of the seafood-flavored udon noodles, I think they're the best. If those are unavailable, Nongshim Udon Noodles are a decent alternative and can be found in bulk at Costco.

My tip, regardless of which you choose, is to always add hot water over the filling line because the soy sauce can be a bit salty, and it gives you more soup to drink. Optionally, you can add sesame seeds & oil, black pepper, seaweed, and an extra spoon of soy sauce to enhance the flavor. Microwave as instructed, then let it sit for ~10 minutes until the noodles are to your liking.

 

[nootthenoot]

Shin Ramen is great. However, if you're in the mood for something different, I recommend JFC Japanese Style Udon Noodles. Of the seafood-flavored udon noodles, I think they're the best. If those are unavailable, Nongshim Udon Noodles are a decent alternative and can be found in bulk at Costco.

Those look really, really good. I may go with those ones if I find them there. The things is now I'm becoming indecisive with all these ramen option lmao.

My tip, regardless of which you choose, is to always add hot water over the filling line because the soy sauce can be a bit salty, and it gives you more soup to drink. Optionally, you can add sesame seeds & oil, black pepper, seaweed, and an extra spoon of soy sauce to enhance the flavor. Microwave as instructed, then let it sit for ~10 minutes until the noodles are to your liking.

How the fuck did I not think about that???? Especially the part about letting it sit, no fucking wonder my noodles are always crunchy

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

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[JAlexa]

I've always had a preference for thicker noodles, so I love Udon more than regular ramen.
Another tip - some restaurants let you request thick noodles if they make them in-house. Given the option, always choose thick as they absorb the broth better.

How the fuck did I not think about that???? Especially the part about letting it sit, no fucking wonder my noodles are always crunchy

You can thank my ADHD for that. I often lose track of time and come back 20 minutes later to plump noodles.

 

[nootthenoot]

I've always had a preference for thicker noodles, so I love Udon more than regular ramen.
Another tip - some restaurants let you request thick noodles if they make them in-house. Given the option, always choose thick as they absorb the broth better.

I've always liked thicker noodles as well tbh. But I've never thought to order thicker ramen noodles at a restaurant for some reason. I'll keep that in mind in case things go wrong friday.

 

[Summer Child]

Do you like really spicy stuff? In that case, these



Samyang. It comes in regular spicy (which is still pretty spicy), 2x spicy, and even 3x spicy. 2x spicy needed lots of time and cold water to eat. Never tried 3x.

Definitely something to try once, even if just to see if you can. This is just the "default" variant, there's other flavors too. Not sure if it comes in a cup, but I do know it does come in a bowl. And, it's not a soup type.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Hmm, can't help on the noodle question.

Still- I do relate on the wanting/ needing someone to actually see where you are emotionally and care. It was actually a friends Mum who saw it in me and said- 'I think you need to speak to someone.' It may sound strange to some folk but I think sometimes we need someone to validate that what we are going through is serious enough to ask for help. Do your family have a negative view on therapy? I think that was one of my stumbling blocks.

Truly honestly speaking- it might not help. I'm terribly stubborn like you- so I can relate there. Still- it MIGHT help having someone else's perspective. I do completely believe we should have autonomy over our own life and deaths. However, I also believe that EVERYONE'S problems are valid and everyone deserves support. Sadly, it's very much on the individual to shout and scream they're in trouble it seems now, which is hard in a culture that expects us to just get on with it. I wish you well- whatever you decide and I hope you find the ultimate noodle.

 

[cemetorium]

I love Shin Kimchi noodles.

 

[CHXX]

Master Kong Beef Noodles in China

 

[stillthinkingabtit]

Context: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/fucked-up-today-may-push-up-the-date.101817/

Yeah no, shits been getting worst. Now I'm even more excited to ctb this Friday. My counsellor somehow didn't give a shit about me being on the verge of ctb, and instead gave me a bunch of bandage solutions. I can't call my mom to take me to the hospital because she will just yell at me. Dad's unreliable, all my friends can't do much. I'm fucked.

I'm going to be honest with you guys, since this is the only community of people that actually gets it. Part of me wants to be helped. That's the part that is telling everyone about this, and hoping someone will take me seriously enough to tell me to go to the hospital. But another part knows I can't be helped. I'm too deep into depression, and I'm too stubborn to accept any help given to me. I don't even know if getting admitted will help me. At this point suicide is my only option. I welcome this fact, and I accept the fact that this is the only option I have.

Tomorrow after my classes, I'll go out and get some snacks for the big day. Probably will be a bunch of candy, and cup noodles for my last lunch. I want to be a celebration of my life. This will be a final happy moment for me. The darkness deep down will always be there, but I want to feel a fleeting sense of joy. I will also buy a small thing of coffee so I can stay awake tomorrow night. And an early bday present for my little brother ^^

So yeah, I'm basically going to use this as a 'goodbye' thread. I would rather have it more light-hearted than other threads like this here, just because. Anyways any cup noodle recommendations? I'll rather it be something you can microwave, though it doesn't have to be.

I wish we were friends so I could drive you to the hospital. Can you try to reach out to anyone else?

 

[leeloosnow]

couldn't find spicy miso ramen @grocery yday T.T def my fave. big hugs and the best of ramen to you, my friend.

 

[emgrl]

I'd even pay for your Uber to get you some help. Takes a lot to ask for, when someone does, I think they deserve the Best help they can get.
How are you feeling? If you need or want to talk, please pm me. I'm here for you ♡

 

[Obliviate]

I know what you mean about that "help" part in a way, you're so lost in this ball of darkness yet still have this tiny glimmer of hope that s savior will come and miracously drag you out of this hell hole, while it looks good in movies, only the lucky ones get to experience that. I unfortunately am not one of them but I guess I've accepted that. Like hey girl, it just wasn't meant to be. You just didn't have the luck. I'm atleast grateful for what I have now.

 

[nootthenoot]

I wish we were friends so I could drive you to the hospital. Can you try to reach out to anyone else?

No honestly. Most of my friends aren't able to help, and my family isn't the best when it comes to mental health.

I'd even pay for your Uber to get you some help. Takes a lot to ask for, when someone does, I think they deserve the Best help they can get.
How are you feeling? If you need or want to talk, please pm me. I'm here for you ♡

I have no clue what to say to that, in a good way. I'm just really happy I have this kind of support from the community. Right now, I'm feeling rather confident on the Friday thing, but if stuff fails I guess the hospital will be my next option ^^

 

[rationaltake]

I think you owe it to yourself to try some help. Please go to hospital. If it doesn't work at least you'll know you tried everything. Is there any chance of calling your mom and really levelling with her? You sound like a nice person and you deserve help.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life can certainly be tiring and I understand that when life gets worse it can be difficult to carry on enduring this existence. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[nootthenoot]

Convinced my parents to take me to the hospital again; will update you when I get the chance on here

 

[temporary]

Convinced my parents to take me to the hospital again; will update you when I get the chance on here

I'm happy you were able to get a way to the hospital, I hope everyone treats you well and maybe something will change for the better
looking forward to updates and oh! you should still try the different suggested ramen when you get the chance :)

 

[Green Destiny]

Convinced my parents to take me to the hospital again; will update you when I get the chance on here

Glad to hear it. Hope it goes well for you Friend.

 

[Summer Child]

Convinced my parents to take me to the hospital again; will update you when I get the chance on here

Hope it goes well. Proud that you were able to get yourself to do that, doesn't seem like it was easy. Haven't been on here very long and don't know you as a person, but I like the vibe I get from you. You're cool.

(and you should definitely try all the noodles smh )

 

[brdhndz]

Glad that you could get some help, now you'll have some time to try all those cup of noodle suggestions and decide the best one. My rec is Thai Chef chicken flavor.

 

[nootthenoot]

Update:

Just got back from the hospital. It was a huge fight to get there in the first place. My parents were against it and saw it as me and my 'BPD' (which I was diagnosed with at my first hospital visit with no explanation??) manipulating the system. Eventually though I convinced them to drive me. So my dad took me to the hospital. When I got admitted, I told them that I'm going to end my life this Friday, and also about all the backup dates. Told them I don't want to live to see 2023, told them I self-harm (and still plan to), and told them that at this point nothing will stop me. Basically tell-tale signs that I'm not ok. They then pull my dad to the side for a bit, and when they came back, we had to wait hours for the doctor and nurse to show up...only for them to give me papers on basic coping strategies (think grounding and deep breaths) and discharge me. A person who is fucking actively suicidal. But at this point, I've accepted it. I see this as a sign that no one in this world wants to deal with my problems, and that all my misery is destined to be resolved by ctb. I welcome death, both as a way to finally be at peace, and as a way to say 'fuck you' to all the pathetic people who couldn't see past the surface of my problems. I'm tired of living this way. No one, not my parents, nor my friends, nor my therapists, nor the fucking hospital staff gets me. It's only you guys that understand me.

Later today, I'm going to settle everything that has to be settled. I'm going to clean my room at home, and prep myself for Friday. After I post this, I'm going to revise my note so that it reflects all these recent events. I'm also going to draft an email to the local police so that they know where to find me come Saturday morning, and redo my plan so that it can be more reflective of my situation now.

I genuinely want to thank the people who suggested going to the hospital as a second-to-last resort. It could of only gone two ways with my condition: they get me and understand that I'm not okay, or they choose not to give a shit. Unfortunately, it was the latter, but I see this as a good thing. This entire thing gives my SI a peace of mind when it comes to this; no one fucking cares, and no one will help me. In their eyes, whenever I have a mental crisis, it has to be because of a stupid event, and it means I must have better coping mechanism!!! Idk why it took me so long to finally get that, but it's so freeing to know it isn't my fault.

Lastly, I just want to thank the entire community here at SS. You guys are the only ones that I feel get my situation at this point, and I'm so fucking grateful for that. You guys are the reason that I chose to try to get help one more time, and even though it failed, I still know that y'all still care for me. Even though by Saturday morning I wouldn't be here anymore, I just want to let you know that you are all in my heart, and I am so, so happy to have joined this community.

Btw, I chose to have Shin ramen as a last ramen meal, partly because of the suggestions and partly because it was the only good brand they had.

So yeah, this is still going to be a goodbye thread for me ig, I'll try to update you guys if anything major happens before Friday night.

 

[seewell]

I hope you are at peace @nootthenoot

 

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