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nihilisticmystics

nihilisticmystics

halcyon girl
Apr 24, 2025
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yes i know this is my own fault but i really dont need to hear that right now, we even used protection which i know isnt a guaranteed way to prevent pregnancy, but i did everything i was supposed to do on my end and it still happened, im only 19 and im in no way at all ready mentally, physically, or environmentally ready to have it

its times like these where i really wish i had my mom but she passed away when i was 8, i know im going to get an abortion somehow (im in texas) but i plan to ctb sometime before december ends with a partner, i don't know if i should get an abortion before i ctb or just ctb, i never really expected myself to end up in this situation
 
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Roseate

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Mar 24, 2021
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if you plan to ctb it's best to just get the abortion beforehand. But if you want to talk, I'm here.
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

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Oct 12, 2024
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Please, please do get an abortion if you can. I know you want to CTB, I do too and did, many times.

Do not underestimate survival instinct, be sure that if you do survive/don't go through with CTB at the time of december you are at least safe from another big problem which would be a kid you are not ready for.

I do not want to sound pessimistic, but do go through with the abortion, calm down, you have a couple of days to think about how you're gonna get an abortion, do not mention CTB to doctors at all under no circumstance, make up a story, you are just a young adult, got a gap year, had an unfortunate incident, you want to go to university, you want to finish university, you unfortunately don't have a mother to help with the child, can't be a mother, the person who got you pregnant can't be a father, etc. LIE, do anything to ensure that you can get that abortion no matter what if this is what you wish.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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yes i know this is my own fault but i really dont need to hear that right now, we even used protection which i know isnt a guaranteed way to prevent pregnancy, but i did everything i was supposed to do on my end and it still happened, im only 19 and im in no way at all ready mentally, physically, or environmentally ready to have it

its times like these where i really wish i had my mom but she passed away when i was 8, i know im going to get an abortion somehow (im in texas) but i plan to ctb sometime before december ends with a partner, i don't know if i should get an abortion before i ctb or just ctb, i never really expected myself to end up in this situation
I'm so sorry you don't have your mom 😔. Since most attempts are simply that, attempts that don't succeed, I would decide about the other situation first. If you try to ctb & fail, you may no longer be in a position where you can have any say over what happens next.
 
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