im pathetic

[kunikuzushi]

god damn i am truly the most pathetic person

i was in the car with my partner for hours begging him to talk to me. he finally couldn't take it anymore and when i stepped out of the car for air, he threw my bag and stuff out the car and drove off with the door still open as i cried and begged for him to stay

i truly wish for this pain to be over. im pathetic and the pain is all my fault. i can just leave him and heal. but no i choose to suffer the worst pain because im so scared of being alone. i hate myself and i hate that i was forced into this cruel existence. i despise everyone who chooses to bring more people into existence just to suffer.

 

[meowpuppy]

please try not to believe that you can just leave!

leaving is hard, for any type of relationship, platonic, romantic, abusive, healthy, whatever. i really think you should be kind to yourself for not leaving because while it doesn't require lots of physical strength, it requires lots of mental strength.

 

[Secro]

You're not pathetic: he didn't deserve you.

 

[Blasphemous]

god damn i am truly the most pathetic person

i was in the car with my partner for hours begging him to talk to me. he finally couldn't take it anymore and when i stepped out of the car for air, he threw my bag and stuff out the car and drove off with the door still open as i cried and begged for him to stay

i truly wish for this pain to be over. im pathetic and the pain is all my fault. i can just leave him and heal. but no i choose to suffer the worst pain because im so scared of being alone. i hate myself and i hate that i was forced into this cruel existence. i despise everyone who chooses to bring more people into existence just to suffer.

you know there are other people that you can talk to? It can feel harsh to you what i am trying to say but it is true, in the end, you will not think about him like you used to and there is plenty of other people around

 

[kunikuzushi]

please try not to believe that you can just leave!

leaving is hard, for any type of relationship, platonic, romantic, abusive, healthy, whatever. i really think you should be kind to yourself for not leaving because while it doesn't require lots of physical strength, it requires lots of mental strength.

thank you so much. im always hard on myself for not leaving when i should. but you're right, it requires so much strength.

you know there are other people that you can talk to? It can feel harsh to you what i am trying to say but it is true, in the end, you will not think about him like you used to and there is plenty of other people around

thank you i understand what you're trying to say. my 33 years of living show that everyone reaches a point where they can't stand me and treat me horribly. it's my fault. im unbearable to be around. and i think the amount of people that want to deal with someone very suicidal is low. that's why i stay