I’m officially choosing recovery but keeping my account just in case it doesn’t work out.

[whenwillthepainstop]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

Congrats.

I hope it works out for you.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

Congrats.

I hope it works out for you.

Thank you so much!

 

[EternalShore]

See ya, and I wish you the best and a successful recovery, whenwillthepainstop! :) I hope you are able to do your best and make it through now! ^_^
Since I didn't get to it earlier, this was the pro-life sewer slide forum I was referring to earlier~: https://www.suicideforum.com/community/
You don't have to use it, but you mentioned wanting it as an option~

 

[ForsakenEcho]

Congratulations!

It's a hard decision, but I truly hope only good things come your way!

 

[Wolf Girl]

Good for you! I hope everything goes good.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

See ya, and I wish you the best and a successful recovery, whenwillthepainstop! :) I hope you are able to do your best and make it through now! ^_^
Since I didn't get to it earlier, this was the pro-life sewer slide forum I was referring to earlier~: https://www.suicideforum.com/community/
You don't have to use it, but you mentioned wanting it as an option~

Thanks, also sorry if my post was confusing I'm not leaving the site rn or anything, I just wanted to put it out there that I'm choosing recovery because if other people acknowledge it, maybe it'll pressure me into avoiding relapse.

 

[EternalShore]

Thanks, also sorry if my post was confusing I'm not leaving the site rn or anything, I just wanted to put it out there that I'm choosing recovery because if other people acknowledge it, maybe it'll pressure me into avoiding relapse.

ah, awesome! ^_^ Let's hope it does! :)

 

[cantthinkofusername]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

proud of u

 

[TBONTB]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

Congratulations! I love that you are building a better life for yourself...peace to you!

 

[PrincessSaturn]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

Congrats! I feel the same way. There's a comfort in knowing that you can always end things on your own terms if it doesn't work out. If you've hit rock bottom before, the only way to go from here is up, right? (I sure hope so). If you ever want to chat about it I'd love to talk!

Praying you find peace and happiness! <3

 

[UtopianSoliloquies]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

I'm very happy for you . You're very strong for resolving to keep trying to live a life in which you've gone through so much pain. I hope you find relief for the suffering you've been through. Just remember that even if you've become the happiest person in the world, you'll still be welcome here!

 

[vira]

Everyone congratulate me, it was hard to come to the decision of trying my hardest to better my life. It's comforting to know suicide is always an option, but I won't go down that route before trying other things. I'm gonna try to build a better life for myself. I hope everyone here finds peace and happiness.

congrats on choosing recovery! whatever comes your way, just remember recovery isn't linear :) you can mess up and go against your goals, but there's always another day to do better.

 

[genie]

Congrats! don't think I'll ever go into full recovery, it's not for me as things will never get better.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

Congrats! don't think I'll ever go into full recovery, it's not for me as things will never get better.

I'm sorry, I do hope you are able to one day but I know life isn't always fair. I feel this way too but I want to WANT to get better instead of pitying myself.

 

[nembutal]

i had the same mindset of "if it doesn't work out i'll just ____". close the door on your way out!!! if you think this website will haunt you close your account to not give you something to go "back" to. i had a huge problem with fentanyl, multiple ODs, when i was in forced recovery two years ago i was already calling up old dealers building rapport to get a dose when i got back to the city. my point is that when i left those doors open for myself "in case", when i didn't block the people who kept me sick, the websites that kept me sick (i would visit r/heroin constantly) i just felt worse and worse. this recovery run i've eliminated all of the people, media, places that do not benefit positive change. i promise you that putting in work and building hope will propel you on an upwards trajectory. a year ago i would shit my pants if someone told me that in 2025 my first thought after an inconvenience wouldn't be killing myself.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Congrats, always remember that recovery isn't a straight line. I'm also in recovery but I consider suicide an option always on the table.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

i had the same mindset of "if it doesn't work out i'll just ____". close the door on your way out!!! if you think this website will haunt you close your account to not give you something to go "back" to. i had a huge problem with fentanyl, multiple ODs, when i was in forced recovery two years ago i was already calling up old dealers building rapport to get a dose when i got back to the city. my point is that when i left those doors open for myself "in case", when i didn't block the people who kept me sick, the websites that kept me sick (i would visit r/heroin constantly) i just felt worse and worse. this recovery run i've eliminated all of the people, media, places that do not benefit positive change. i promise you that putting in work and building hope will propel you on an upwards trajectory. a year ago i would shit my pants if someone told me that in 2025 my first thought after an inconvenience wouldn't be killing myself.

Yeah but before I got onto this website and made a whole account and all, I would just suffer knowing there's no way out because if I didn't have enough info on my method I risk survival which is even worse and so I'd still be in agonizing pain, just trapped. I keep my account just in case so I won't feel trapped anymore if recovery doesn't work out.

 

[r.m.216]

So happy for you!!!