Venting I’m not ok

[luna674]

I feel like shit everyday I cry everyday I'm so over this I want it to go away.i have nothing to live for.people are so cruel towards me I don't have a dad my moms not emotionally there for me.i sob all day I have agoraphobia.i don't know what to do.i might go to a drop in shelter if I left my neighborhood I think id be better.i have literally no one I can go to or speak to.i feel so shitty.please if you life isn't that bad don't even think about suicide try you best.im fucking hurting right now I just want the pain to go away.
Jumping is a bad method apparently I don't know what to do
What job do I even get I'm useless
I don't wanna leech of my mom anymore I also don't want my last days being stuck at home.i really hope I never go back to a hospital it sucks and barely helps
Someone plz take my life people get killed everyday why not me it's not fair
I'm thinking about hanging and jumping of a bridge
I feel so desperate I just want everything to go away I'm so over this life i think I'm gonna jump off a bridge. I can't do this I need out I wish I had something meaningful to live for but I don't have shit. I have no one im so mad I was born it really sucks

 

[The Great Below]

I feel this constantly crying all day everyday every moment that I can not that I can control it when I don't have a moment. it is so much easier to wish for death then to make the plans to do it yourself. Jumping sounds terrifying to me & I'm not scared of heights but I wouldn't even know where to start thinking for doing that personally. I understand wanting to leave A change of scenery getting out of place you feel stuck.. I wish there was a place I could go sometimes but sadly I have a husband and kids and there's just nowhere to go. *hugs* not that it will necessarily make you feel better but you are definitely not alone in your sorrow

 

[luna674]

Hanging might be my best option

I feel this constantly crying all day everyday every moment that I can not that I can control it when I don't have a moment. it is so much easier to wish for death then to make the plans to do it yourself. Jumping sounds terrifying to me & I'm not scared of heights but I wouldn't even know where to start thinking for doing that personally. I understand wanting to leave A change of scenery getting out of place you feel stuck.. I wish there was a place I could go sometimes but sadly I have a husband and kids and there's just nowhere to go. *hugs* not that it will necessarily make you feel better but you are definitely not alone in your sorrow

Thanks it's really hard feeling alone.this site is all I have