Venting Im not like obsessed with her or anything

[ImNotReal]

So there's this girl I've known for like 6 years. Were super close. She's aware of my need to kill myself and she's also like. Pretty unstable like that too. We're incredibly close and oh my God? Like I would never ever ever ask her out or anything. She gets me like nobody else does and she's deadass the only person that's made me ?? Feel again??? I'm not numb around her. I feel as though this is unhealthy for me. And really bad for her. I keep thinking of music lyrics and relating them to her and get real flustered when we hang.

I don't want this man I want to just kill myself and be done with this I don't want to have dumb feelings for people and make it harder on them whenever I die. She's admitted she's into me too but I'm not gonna ?????? Go for it??? This sounds like hell and I want to just hang out with this person forever or until I bash my brains in.

 

[getoutgirl]

She's admitted she's into me too but I'm not gonna

I mean
I get your fear of causing pain on others if you were to die, and thus hiding from connection
but uhhhhhmmmm
i think u two should like date or smth probbly
maybe
Don't know your situation, or exactly why you think that is unhealthy for you or bad for her if there are other reasons you didn't mention. But if it is a fact that she is making you feel, like at all for starters but I guess good things, great things, love n shit, and maybe you'd like to live next to this person despite all the meaninglesness and awful pain in the world. Call me crazy, maybe that's worth it.
you do you
if you wrote this cos you needed a push this is the one. I hereby forgo all responsability about it tho lol
whatever you do hope it goes well

 

[ImNotReal]

I mean
I get your fear of causing pain on others if you were to die, and thus hiding from connection
but uhhhhhmmmm
i think u two should like date or smth probbly
maybe
Don't know your situation, or exactly why you think that is unhealthy for you or bad for her if there are other reasons you didn't mention. But if it is a fact that she is making you feel, like at all for starters but I guess good things, great things, love n shit, and maybe you'd like to live next to this person despite all the meaninglesness and awful pain in the world. Call me crazy, maybe that's worth it.
you do you
if you wrote this cos you needed a push this is the one. I hereby forgo all responsability about it tho lol
whatever you do hope it goes well

I'm not like sane or a good person I could not possibly put any of this responsibility on her. I'm not gonna get any better or anything. I'm still gonna kill myself at some point soon. I genuinely want to cut contact with her honestly because I can't stand the pain I will cause her when I die. I don't think I'll ever be healthy enough for a relationship or anything. I'm just sad and stuff sucks idk

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

Are you 15?

 

[ImNotReal]

Are you 15?

Lmao says the guy posting uber sad song lyrics as update posts

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

Lmao says the guy posting uber sad song lyrics as update posts

Yeah just like everyone else on this site? "Oh no he posted lyrics thats so bad!!!"

I don't want this man I want to just kill myself and be done with this I don't want to have dumb feelings for people and make it harder on them whenever I die. She's admitted she's into me too but I'm not gonna ?????? Go for it??? This sounds like hell and I want to just hang out with this person forever or until I bash my brains in.

At least i didnt reach the insane high lvl of cringe of this OP at any point....... that much I can at least gladly proclaim.

Anyway you need to be over 18 to be on here