I'm not going to get better

[Butterfly-death]

People say to wait for it to get better but I know it won't because everyday it's the same feeling over and over again. EVERY DAMN DAY FOR YEARS. Why am I being punished? Why is life so cruel to me? I'm never happy, ever. And yes it's most likely mental illness and there's not even a cure for that. Fuck getting help (not saying anyone shouldn't though, that's just my personal preference). Life is too much for me to handle and I don't want to handle it. I shouldn't have to be here if I don't want to but I have no option of a way out. It's not fair. "Life isn't fair" so then let me die already. I didn't choose this. I didn't ask to be the way I am or deal with responsibilities. Nothing or no one is worth living for and if I'm wrong for saying that then I guess I'm a bad person. But I'm tired of the sadness, anger, emptiness, and anxiety because those are the only things I feel. I don't want to exist. I genuinely hope my heart stops beating. If only.

 

[AbyssalAlien]

No one is stopping you from dying. There are plenty of methods. Even painless ones as long as you dont screw it up.

Maybe you are more burnt out than you are suicidal.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

No one is stopping you from dying. There are plenty of methods. Even painless ones as long as you dont screw it up.

Maybe you are more burnt out than you are suicidal.

keep in mind this person has been banned. i'm sorry you're feeling like this. your choices are your own regardless. here if you'd like to talk