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[halleyscomet]

i gave my whole life to my ex, my body, my brain, my love, my time. he had it all. he was my life, i revolved around him, my whole existence orbiting around his.

i'm not going to kill myself over a boy thats stupid. but it's tempting. he was my sun, the only warmth i've ever felt and it all turned out to be a lie.

he took advantage of my innocence, he used me until i was dry, until there was nothing left.

and despite the fact that he crippled me i would do anything to be back in his arms, to feel loved again.

why is it so hard to find love, when the world seems so abundant of it. not even just love just a bit of compassion a bit of care.

there has to be something wrong, so fundamentally broken about me for life to have gotten this way.

life sucks, why should i be obligated to remain in it? why do i have to destroy myself to save other guilt? don't i deserve to be loved too??

sorry for getting all emo on my first post haha, i hope you all are doing well <3

 

[Return2themoonlight]

i gave my whole life to my ex, my body, my brain, my love, my time. he had it all. he was my life, i revolved around him, my whole existence orbiting around his.

i'm not going to kill myself over a boy thats stupid. but it's tempting. he was my sun, the only warmth i've ever felt and it all turned out to be a lie.

he took advantage of my innocence, he used me until i was dry, until there was nothing left.

and despite the fact that he crippled me i would do anything to be back in his arms, to feel loved again.

why is it so hard to find love, when the world seems so abundant of it. not even just love just a bit of compassion a bit of care.

there has to be something wrong, so fundamentally broken about me for life to have gotten this way.

life sucks, why should i be obligated to remain in it? why do i have to destroy myself to save other guilt? don't i deserve to be loved too??

sorry for getting all emo on my first post haha, i hope you all are doing well <3

I believe true love is one of the hardest things to realistically find and have. Some can find it and have it last a lifetime while others would never be able to experience it. I'm one of those people who have never experienced it and am personally afraid to experience it from seeing the way it affects people and me caring as much as I do but in the end, I still do desire it. If I can find a female who loves me in the same capacity as I love them then that would be fantastic but sadly to say, life tends to ignore/destroy those that are truly kind hearted. I do hope you find a love that never dies out, as that's something everyone here deserves.

 

[INTJme]

i gave my whole life to my ex, my body, my brain, my love, my time. he had it all. he was my life, i revolved around him, my whole existence orbiting around his.

i'm not going to kill myself over a boy thats stupid. but it's tempting. he was my sun, the only warmth i've ever felt and it all turned out to be a lie.

he took advantage of my innocence, he used me until i was dry, until there was nothing left.

and despite the fact that he crippled me i would do anything to be back in his arms, to feel loved again.

why is it so hard to find love, when the world seems so abundant of it. not even just love just a bit of compassion a bit of care.

there has to be something wrong, so fundamentally broken about me for life to have gotten this way.

life sucks, why should i be obligated to remain in it? why do i have to destroy myself to save other guilt? don't i deserve to be loved too??

sorry for getting all emo on my first post haha, i hope you all are doing well <3

I've experienced something similar, except I'm a guy. My post-mortem analysis of the situation concluded that the less you value yourself and your time, the lesser will they. Being taken for granted is a real phenomenon and when they're done sucking you dry, they'll leave you claiming some bs. I have called my ex a leech before and it fit the nature of our relationship. Sadly, my brain being the fuck up it is, couldn't move on from her despite all the rationality I have.

 

[amra81nz]

Broken love seems to bring alot of people to here.

 

[INTJme]

Broken love seems to bring alot of people to here.

Having your emotions toyed with is surely no joke... especially if you already have pre-existing conditions.

 

[Meteora]

Hey, welcome to the forum..... I understand you so well.... going through a very similar story..... hope you ll find the strength to move on .