Venting i’m lost

[renrone]

i should've ctb last month, i've lost all my chances now. i'm under almost constant surveillance, the only privacy i get is at night whilst everyone is asleep. i don't know what to do now, i'm completely stuck, all my methods i can't do anymore because i have almost nothing left. i've screwed up, i'm completely dependent on my parents until i get a good enough job that they'll let me leave, which isn't until i finish my degree. there's cameras everywhere now, i don't know what to do. my internets been restricted, i don't even know what i did wrong or what they found. i'm completely lost, there's nothing about my life that's the same as it was before, but i still so desperately can't live like this. there's not i can even do now, though.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so dreadful being trapped in that situation, it's just so cruel how people cannot easily free themselves in peace from this existence whenever they wish to.

 

[puella]

I'm so sorry for how bad your situation is right now. I'm here for you if you want company to pass the time by. Good luck.