Discussion I'm losing my sanity and it feels great.

[CaliCatCharlie]

I'm losing sense of myself so fast and it feels great. I wake up and do not care anymore about anything as the days go by. Feeling more and more like I have nothing to lose. I think I will actually one day be able to overcome my survival instinct and kill myself. I might just jump off of a building as my method or drop hang myself. I'm coming so close to getting the release I need from this life. Nothing in this world feels real anymore. I have no idea who I am anymore either. Like my identity is gone from me. My mental health is starting to hit rock bottom and I feel great because I can now be at rest one day without feeling guilt. I'm already working on my will so the people I did kind of like will be able to hold on to things that remind them of me. If I disappear one day I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU!

 

[socrates]

Is it possible to overcome your survival instinct? I thought It was just something you had to plan around because it was an immutable biological defense mechanism. I'm glad your feeling some peace, hope it lasts.

 

[motel rooms]

Is it possible to overcome your survival instinct? I thought It was just something you had to plan around because it was an immutable biological defense mechanism. I'm glad your feeling some peace, hope it lasts.

What's "planning around SI"?
Did you overcome your SI or plan around it before you drank your hemlock, Socrates?

 

[xkidx]

Is it possible to overcome your survival instinct? I thought It was just something you had to plan around because it was an immutable biological defense mechanism. I'm glad your feeling some peace, hope it lasts.

how else would u be able to commit suicide? at the end of the day u will still have to do it if ur gonna do it

 

[Thingsneverchange]

I've been on antidepressants for over 3 years and I am considering stopping to take them so I can get around exactly that survival instinct. I hope I'll get so suicidal that I can go through with it one day soon.

 

[ratpudding]

What's "planning around SI"?
Did you overcome your SI or plan around it before you drank your hemlock, Socrates?

I think drinking something might count as planning around? If it was a hanging or a jump and your SI kicks in you may back out but by the time you try to back out of a drink or something similar it'd be too late wouldn't it?

 

[motel rooms]

I think drinking something might count as planning around? If it was a hanging or a jump and your SI kicks in you may back out but by the time you try to back out of a drink or something similar it'd be too late wouldn't it?

You have to face & overcome your SI even when you're drunk...

 

[ratpudding]

You have to face & overcome your SI even when you're drunk...

But it would be too late after you've drunk it wouldn't it? If you were say hanging, and your SI kicked in you might have the chance to get yourself out of it but if you drink something it'd be too late to not do it unless you threw up fast enough I guess? So even if you're freaking out it's already been done

 

[Midgardsorm]

You have to face & overcome your SI even when you're drunk...

Drinking might help

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it must be a relief to not care about anything anymore. Hopefully I will be able to overcome the SI eventually, but I think it will only happen when I reach a point of desperation. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Pluto]

My plan for the SI problem is to ensure that all practical matters have been dealt with, research into the procedure has been done and N is at hand, so I am free to CTB at any time that a heavy episode of depression hits me. Makes more sense to me than to try and enforce a timetable.

 

[motel rooms]

But it would be too late after you've drunk it wouldn't it? If you were say hanging, and your SI kicked in you might have the chance to get yourself out of it but if you drink something it'd be too late to not do it unless you threw up fast enough I guess? So even if you're freaking out it's already been done

Drinking might help

@Midgardsorm
I think alcohol is overrated as an "SI suppressant"

22:40 The role of alcohol



22:40 The role of alcohol

 

[socrates]

how else would u be able to commit suicide? at the end of the day u will still have to do it if ur gonna do it

That's why you plan around it. Once your in mortal danger you will try your best to save your self. Your last step happens before your in mortal danger. Like drinking the SN or pulling the trigger.

 

[ratpudding]

@Midgardsorm
I think alcohol is overrated as an "SI suppressant"

22:40 The role of alcohol



22:40 The role of alcohol

i'm not talking about drinking alcohol though
YOU brought up socrates drinking hemlock
that's what I've been talking about. If you drink poison, by the time your SI would kick in it would be too late to do anything about it. idk where you're getting alcohol from in my response

 

[motel rooms]

i'm not talking about drinking alcohol though
YOU brought up socrates drinking hemlock
that's what I've been talking about. If you drink poison, by the time your SI would kick in it would be too late to do anything about it. idk where you're getting alcohol from in my response

You didn't notice that I wrote this?
"You have to face & overcome your SI even when you're drunk..."

I think drinking something might count as planning around? If it was a hanging or a jump and your SI kicks in you may back out but by the time you try to back out of a drink or something similar it'd be too late wouldn't it?

What's the difference between jumping/hanging & drinking poison? You think that SI doesn't kick in like a son of a bitch before people reach for the glass they filled with poison & that they don't freeze & back out of drinking it? It's obvious you haven't read any of the hundreds of threads about that happening yet...

 

[ratpudding]

It's obvious you haven't read any of the hundreds of threads about that happening yet...

yeah I literally joined 3 days ago my guy

 

[motel rooms]

yeah I literally joined 3 days ago my guy

I know. I hope you don't think I'm trying to insult you

 

[ratpudding]

I know. I hope you don't think I'm trying to insult you

Like, my point was, if you already drank the poison you SI wouldn't matter because it would be too late. Not about SI kicking in before drinking it or anything with alcohol.
Sorry for the misunderstanding all around though

 

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[again_noidea]

I'm losing sense of myself so fast and it feels great. I wake up and do not care anymore about anything as the days go by. Feeling more and more like I have nothing to lose. I think I will actually one day be able to overcome my survival instinct and kill myself. I might just jump off of a building as my method or drop hang myself. I'm coming so close to getting the release I need from this life. Nothing in this world feels real anymore. I have no idea who I am anymore either. Like my identity is gone from me. My mental health is starting to hit rock bottom and I feel great because I can now be at rest one day without feeling guilt. I'm already working on my will so the people I did kind of like will be able to hold on to things that remind them of me. If I disappear one day I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU!

This feeling sounds familiar. Feels good, enjoy! Maybe that is how freedom feels. I don't know. Probably not. But still, it feels wonderful. Have a nice day!

 

[newave3]

I keep my sanity by watching Tucker Carlson every night.