catastrophix
and my nightmares will have nightmares every night
- Feb 20, 2023
- 94
I've been friendless for years, and most of the time, I'm fine with it. But I'm beginning to feel more and more lonely. The only people I have in my life are the people that live with me, and they aren't the best at listening to me.
I miss buying birthday presents for friends and just generally having someone to talk to. I've done a LOT of work in therapy to be a better person (When I was younger, I was so cynical about everything that my friend group dumped me, but for good reason). I just want to feel like someone cares about me as much as I do for them, you know?
Also, for some reason, SaSu randomly eats any PM I get, so I can't really talk to people on here, either.
I'm sorry I complain about this like, all the time. My physical health has been affecting me majorly for the first time, too, so in combination with loneliness and feeling like shit physically, I feel like I'm losing any minuscule amount of sanity I have. I still can't really plan a CTB due to restrictions I have at home. My physical health issues aren't life threatening by any means, but I kinda hope they get to that level and just kill me. I doubt it will, but there is a small chance it could.
Thanks for reading this far if you did. IDK if there's any way to even help my situation, but I appreciate being listened to, even though it's over text.
I miss buying birthday presents for friends and just generally having someone to talk to. I've done a LOT of work in therapy to be a better person (When I was younger, I was so cynical about everything that my friend group dumped me, but for good reason). I just want to feel like someone cares about me as much as I do for them, you know?
Also, for some reason, SaSu randomly eats any PM I get, so I can't really talk to people on here, either.
I'm sorry I complain about this like, all the time. My physical health has been affecting me majorly for the first time, too, so in combination with loneliness and feeling like shit physically, I feel like I'm losing any minuscule amount of sanity I have. I still can't really plan a CTB due to restrictions I have at home. My physical health issues aren't life threatening by any means, but I kinda hope they get to that level and just kill me. I doubt it will, but there is a small chance it could.
Thanks for reading this far if you did. IDK if there's any way to even help my situation, but I appreciate being listened to, even though it's over text.