Venting I’m living a nightmare

[Not Today Satan]

I'm glad you've been physically healthy.

There was nothing wrong with my wording. And that portion of my comment was not addressed to you; it was addressed to 33-verebrae.

I would appreciate you not criticizing my word choices. It's a fact that exercise and nutrition can help assist mental health. Stating that is not dismissive in the least. Criticizing someone's word choice can come off extremely rude and antagonistic. I would appreciate you not doing that to me, and please read under the correct quotes. Thank you.

I am curious though. How are you on the internet at a Residential treatment facility? Much less a suicide forum?

Are you trolling? This isn't the first time you're being intentionally obtuse on one of her threads.

@willitpass is it just me that finds it weird how this guy offered to DM methods to you?

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Are you trolling? This isn't the first time you're being intentionally obtuse on one of her threads.

No. I'm not trolling. Calling me obtuse with no backing is trolling. You're ignored now.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

An externally good life is no barrier against relentless mental illness. It doesn't discriminate. I was abused horribly by my mother growing up, combined with genetic predisposition for depression, combined with years of trauma from the mental health system that was supposed to help me. My depression has done nothing but get worse and worse to the point that I despise myself. I loathe every aspect of myself. I am in mental agony every day. I have exhausted almost all treatment options. Having good things in your life doesn't spare you the depths of depression. Trust me, it isn't lost on me how good my life is. The guilt of still wanting to die despite how many amazing things I have to live for eats me alive every day. It's what kept me alive for years, but you can only stay alive for other people for so long.

I'm so very sorry. I resonate with all you said about depression. It doesn't care who you are and it's mission is seek & destroy. You deserve nothing but peace from your mental hellscape.

 

[Whale_bones]

I would appreciate you not criticizing my word choices. It's a fact that exercise and nutrition can help assist mental health. Stating that is not dismissive in the least.

It's also a fact that treatment-resistant, intractable depression is a real phenomenon. There's a thousand different factors that may affect an individual person whose story you don't know, factors which aren't influenced in any way by going for a walk and eating well.

This thread is posted in suicide discussion, not the recovery section. Giving unsolicited treatment advice (especially when the person has already stated they have a long history of trying many treatment options) while saying "if I had what you had, I wouldn't CTB" often comes off like you're assuming you know their own life better than they do.

Most people encounter plenty of those assumptions IRL. This forum is the one place we can go for a bit of relief from that, where we don't assume we know a stranger's life story and instead accept that each person is the authority on their own life.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

It's also a fact that treatment-resistant, intractable depression is a real phenomenon. There's a thousand different factors that may affect an individual person whose story you don't know, factors which aren't influenced in any way by going for a walk and eating well.

This thread is posted in suicide discussion, not the recovery section. Giving unsolicited treatment advice (especially when the person has already stated they have a long history of trying many treatment options) while saying "if I had what you had, I wouldn't CTB" often comes off like you're assuming you know their own life better than they do.

Most people encounter plenty of those assumptions IRL. This forum is the one place we can go for a bit of relief from that, where we don't assume we know a stranger's life story and instead accept that each person is the authority on their own life.

I really don't care. I'm just going to start ignoring anyone who damages my sense of peace. I'd recommend you do the same. I'm not here to argue. Only understand. If that's triggering for people, I have no need for them in my life in any capacity.

I was trying to understand her circumstances. That wasn't an attempt to "recover" her, that was a conversation between me and someone else. If the only answer you can ever accept is "No. Everything is broken beyond repair. Never mention that anything can be fixed or even mitigated", there is no point for discussion on any capacity. I only appreciate people with malleable belief structures and open minds.

I will live my final days as chill as I can. It was an attempt to understand her. Talking about giving people relief, with all your judgement, criticism, and talking down to me, without understanding a single thing? That is a real joke. All you all have done is create drama and create constantly moving goalposts for what is and is not acceptable conversation. I refuse to be constrained. I am me, if people don't like it, they can leave me alone.

People come here for relief, but all you all are giving me is GRIEF. So that doesn't really make sense to me right now. Not on this thread. Not my problem. Anyone who has a problem with me can do what I'm doing to anyone who disturbs my very rare peace: press the ignore button.

I'm done with this thread. I've set the other two on ignore, so kindly leave me alone and continue your own sense of "relief" giving.