Venting im just so tired

[hello_vatya]

For the past recent weeks I've been suffering from fatigue. But not normal fatigue, It's like sleeping doesn't even matter anymore. Every time I wake up, I feel exhausted. I feel guilty because, there's nothing physically wrong with me I'm healthy. It's just my depression wears me out so much. All the time I have to deal with everyone in my life screaming about how lazy I am, and how I can't clean up after myself.

I need to help My grandma who has a chronic lung disease, and she needs help around my apartment and I can't. I physically can't. I am disgusted by my negligence towards everything I should be active, I should be able to perform everyday tasks without almost passing out. Instead I am an invalid, trapped in an intoxicating grave; that I have dug for myself.

please tell me someone has the slightest bit of relation to this thread?.

 

[Leichter Kampfwagen]

Been there. Couldn't stand up in the shower. Couldn't lift the knife to butter my bread. Everything weighed 10x. No reason.

 

[hello_vatya]

Been there. Couldn't stand up in the shower. Couldn't lift the knife to butter my bread. Everything weighed 10x. No reason.

It's so frustrating :,( why do our bodies do this to us

 

[unluckysadness]

One day, a woman told me "There is no obligation to do impossible things". It's not your fault. Depression is a disease. You can be proud of yourself.
Healthy people cannot understand.
We are here for you

 

[Irisse]

This usually happens to me, though for me it's more due to paranoia than depression. But yeah, during those days I can barely get out of bed because my thoughts are swirling in my head and I go over every single worst case scenario there is.