Venting im so fucking fat

[ScaredCutter]

i just looked at myself from my camera and im so fat, i just cant believe it anymore, i thought i was losing some weight but no, IM FAT. i dont want to go on a scale, i cant even be on a fucking diet for even 10 mintues, i cant even exercise, i ant do anything. im a huge fucking slob, i eat junk food and i cant even slow down when i eat, i cant even gain a normal eating habit. i literally look like im a few months preg, im so fucking hideous. i wish i could go back in time and still be in the position where i stopped eating and ate so much less, i lost weight and it was noticeable for me, i felt cold and dizzy some times but omg i need to go back, IM SO FUCKING UGLY. my weight is my biggest insecurity (no pun), ive struggled with self image for SO LONG, THIS IS THE WORST HTING EVER. ill never love myself because my weight is always going up, i binged ate during lockdown and just gained everything back, i did it again around a year or 2 ago and nothings changed, im getting fat and NOTHING WORKS. i want ozempics, i want surgery to lose all this weight. there is ozempics in the hosue but its only for my dad. i used to go on edtwt and try copy peoples habit and days of calories to eat and foods/drinks to avoid and i cant stop falling back into being a fatass. all i see in my life is thin people, im jealous of every girl i see. i HATE beign fat, im scared of obsesity, im scared of getting an apron stomach, im gonna look like my mum next, visible double chin my dad, stomach that hangs over and the fat on his arms looks like its melting. i cant STAND this body no more, i hate my eating habits. i NEED and WANT to be restricted of food and forced to exercise, IM SO UGLY AND FAT. I WISH I DIDNT EXIST SO I COULD NEVER EAT. why am i built to just eat and eat, im always hugnry and this is the worst shit for me. i wish i had a fast metabolism like my brother, im cursed with this slow one that does JACK SHIT. my mum said id lose weight from puberty eventually, yeah im 18 and it has NEVER CAME, i hate liars. i wish my stomach couldnt handle food, i wish i could just NEVER eat.

crying from it because this weight affects me so bad, I HATE IT, i hate myself, i wish i just kepot eating less, i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE EATING.

NO amount of positivty will help me feel better, im fat and ugly and i know it, NOBODY will change that mindset for me until i lose weight and become thin. i can only somewhat like my body because of my boyfriend, other than that IM A HUGE FUCKING SLOB

 

[BrainSplatter]

Why don't you buy some of your own ozempic you can get it on DWMS

 

[ScaredCutter]

Why don't you buy some of your own ozempic you can get it on DWMS

im broke. im jobless. i dont get any money until my birthday and christmas and im saving it for something else. i dont know what DWMS is either, does it work in australia?

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

A regular person shouldn't administrate Ozempic on their own . It's a very complex med and must be monitored and adjusted as the treatment progresses.

Chances are you are going to mess with ur metabolism or ending more fat than when u started when you stop taking it.

 

[ScaredCutter]

A regular person shouldn't administrate Ozempic on their own . It's a very complex med and must be monitored and adjusted as the treatment progresses.

Chances are you are going to mess with ur metabolism or ending more fat than when u started when you stop taking it.

i see, i wont really do that then. is there any other option out there?

i dont have energy or motivation to execrise, even a little. i was going to get a dietitian at one point but i guess the idea was cancelled. i tried changing my eating habits but, i struggle with eating certain foods because im probably picky idk and i'll fall right back into being a slob eating junk food. the only thing that worked was me being lonely at school and afraid to eat around others, it caused me to lose weight and i brought the habit home but, i stopped doing that and just regained everything back.

 

[overmorrow]

it may sound silly but you should try going to a nutritionist, my mom was overweight and has lost a lot of weight thanks to them

please don't be so hard on yourself

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

If it's a problem of eating a lot (not hormones or other), nutritionist should be first.

I know someone close that did a stomach reduction. But it's expensive and it is not like you can eat all you want. You must start with a regime 3 months prior and stick to it for 3 months more after the operation. Then you can start eating a "little bit of everything", as normal, but your rations will be 80% smaller. So imagine a dish of italian pasta but you can eat only a small portion. In the beginning it's easy because you can't eat more of this 20% rations. But with time if you fall into eating more and more (and it's nothing to be ashamed of, it happens to a lot of people with reduced stomachs) you will mess everything up.

What I want to say is that reducing ur stomach is not like "i will live the exact same life, but I will lose 50 Kgs".

 

[Macedonian1987]

i just looked at myself from my camera and im so fat, i just cant believe it anymore, i thought i was losing some weight but no, IM FAT. i dont want to go on a scale, i cant even be on a fucking diet for even 10 mintues, i cant even exercise, i ant do anything. im a huge fucking slob, i eat junk food and i cant even slow down when i eat, i cant even gain a normal eating habit. i literally look like im a few months preg, im so fucking hideous. i wish i could go back in time and still be in the position where i stopped eating and ate so much less, i lost weight and it was noticeable for me, i felt cold and dizzy some times but omg i need to go back, IM SO FUCKING UGLY. my weight is my biggest insecurity (no pun), ive struggled with self image for SO LONG, THIS IS THE WORST HTING EVER. ill never love myself because my weight is always going up, i binged ate during lockdown and just gained everything back, i did it again around a year or 2 ago and nothings changed, im getting fat and NOTHING WORKS. i want ozempics, i want surgery to lose all this weight. there is ozempics in the hosue but its only for my dad. i used to go on edtwt and try copy peoples habit and days of calories to eat and foods/drinks to avoid and i cant stop falling back into being a fatass. all i see in my life is thin people, im jealous of every girl i see. i HATE beign fat, im scared of obsesity, im scared of getting an apron stomach, im gonna look like my mum next, visible double chin my dad, stomach that hangs over and the fat on his arms looks like its melting. i cant STAND this body no more, i hate my eating habits. i NEED and WANT to be restricted of food and forced to exercise, IM SO UGLY AND FAT. I WISH I DIDNT EXIST SO I COULD NEVER EAT. why am i built to just eat and eat, im always hugnry and this is the worst shit for me. i wish i had a fast metabolism like my brother, im cursed with this slow one that does JACK SHIT. my mum said id lose weight from puberty eventually, yeah im 18 and it has NEVER CAME, i hate liars. i wish my stomach couldnt handle food, i wish i could just NEVER eat.

crying from it because this weight affects me so bad, I HATE IT, i hate myself, i wish i just kepot eating less, i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE EATING.

NO amount of positivty will help me feel better, im fat and ugly and i know it, NOBODY will change that mindset for me until i lose weight and become thin. i can only somewhat like my body because of my boyfriend, other than that IM A HUGE FUCKING SLOB

You are probably quite young, and let me give you an advice. An advice I wish I was given when I was a teenager. When I was a teenager I had the opposite problem - I was too skinny. I was a walking breathing skeleton and I used to hate my body. I hated my body back then because people (even my parents) were telling me all these rude comments about my appereance. One day I realized that no matter how much I try to please people, they will never say anything positive about me. So one day I said fuck it... I'm not going to live to please other people any more. I'm gonna start living as I best see fit, and I will stop caring about their comments. In time I began liking myself and the way my body looked like (even though I was still very skinny). As the decades passed by my metabolism slowed down and now I have the opposite problem. I'm beginning to become a bit overweight, but I don't care about that in the slightest. I'm gonna ctb in a year or two so....

 

[ScaredCutter]

You are probably quite young, and let me give you an advice. An advice I wish I was given when I was a teenager. When I was a teenager I had the opposite problem - I was too skinny. I was a walking breathing skeleton and I used to hate my body. I hated my body back then because people (even my parents) were telling me all these rude comments about my appereance. One day I realized that no matter how much I try to please people, they will never say anything positive about me. So one day I said fuck it... I'm not going to live to please other people any more. I'm gonna start living as I best see fit, and I will stop caring about their comments. In time I began liking myself and the way my body looked like (even though I was still very skinny). As the decades passed by my metabolism slowed down and now I have the opposite problem. I'm beginning to become a bit overweight, but I don't care about that in the slightest. I'm gonna ctb in a year or two so....

im glad that u eventually were able to feel happy about urself despite all the rude comments from others and family but, those kind of advices ive been told, just never done anything for me. ive tried feeling better about my own body and like always, it falls flat. i dont care about what others say about my weight (unless its those online groups who make seeing certain sizes as abnormal) but, im the only person who is putting myself down because of my weight. ive always had an image of how im supposed to look like. i used to hang around fairly skinny people and was super jealous because of their weight.

 

[Macedonian1987]

im glad that u eventually were able to feel happy about urself despite all the rude comments from others and family but, those kind of advices ive been told, just never done anything for me. ive tried feeling better about my own body and like always, it falls flat. i dont care about what others say about my weight (unless its those online groups who make seeing certain sizes as abnormal) but, im the only person who is putting myself down because of my weight. ive always had an image of how im supposed to look like. i used to hang around fairly skinny people and was super jealous because of their weight.

I used to be jealous too of my so-called friends who were more muscular than me. This jealousy was "fixed" when my life became riddled with chronic pain and I totally stopped caring about how I looked.

Try and accept yourself just the way you are. If you can, find a good nutritionists who will tell you what to eat and what to avoid eating. You will start losing weight this way, it will be a slow process, lasting a year or two, but the results will be there.

 

[hoppybunny]

i see, i wont really do that then. is there any other option out there?

i dont have energy or motivation to execrise, even a little. i was going to get a dietitian at one point but i guess the idea was cancelled. i tried changing my eating habits but, i struggle with eating certain foods because im probably picky idk and i'll fall right back into being a slob eating junk food. the only thing that worked was me being lonely at school and afraid to eat around others, it caused me to lose weight and i brought the habit home but, i stopped doing that and just regained everything back.

I also reccomend a nutritionist as well. I also reccomend accounts like aussiefitness that make diet and protien packed alternatives to junk food. The books i attached have some recipes.

I plan to see a nutritionist and change my diet once i start getting a stable income.

Also some hormone issues can cause weight gane especially for women/female bodies because our bodies are understudied and use male health as the guidelines even though we're completely different.

things that can cause weight gain like high stress which you clearly are, can be checked during said hormone and physical checks.

I also struggle with weight and self image and looking in the mirror makes me sick, and i feel like shoving a shotgun down my throat when i catch a glimps of myself in photos.

But honestly I've never been jealous of other people. I think mainly cause my fitness goals are all fictional characters so real people don't make me envious.

However i understand how you feel about the self hate. Unfortunately this self hate is one of the main reasons u may be unable to lose weight.

To lose weight u need to come to terms to where u are so u can assess where u need to be. And u need to do it healthily or you'll just relapse. These things are not possible if u hate urself.

If u can't even get on a scale or be naked long enough to measure yourself it's an issue.

Instead of trying to love yourself which i know from experience is impossible, try body neutrality. Basically your body exists as it is rn and while it is not beautiful it's not terrible. It's not a moral failure nor is it gross.


That has helped me be more objective and has helped me control my weight while i work towards a better financial situation.


I only binge eat now if I'm really upset or if it's food i enjoy that i haven't had in a while.

 

[Seneca65AD]

Is it possible that you are seeing yourself in an unrealistic light? I know you do not want to step on the scale but perhaps approach this issue in a clinical manner. Take your weight and height, and go to a doctor - or have the doctor do them. I would not do a BMI on your own simply because they are notoriously unreliable as true indicators of obesity. The doctor should take your waist measurement and run some blood sugar tests. There may be a possibility that you are not as obese as you say you are and you suffer from body dysmorphia - 2% of younger people suffer from that issue. However, even if you do not, 55% of young people are dissatisfied with their appearance. (study of 21K+ teens from Australia, Canada, the US, the UK, etc.) So, be aware that you are not alone in this.

Try to see a nutritionist and even a counsellor or psychologist - I know you are broke but check to see if there are mental health supports in your area. You are very hard on yourself and the negative talk simply reinforces the negative image, which then causes negative actions, and the cycle repeats..... Try to show yourself a little self-love. Life is will beat you up enough without your psyche piling on.....

 

[iamanavalanche]

i relate to you

 

[Bruce]

@ScaredCutter So you're fat and you don't like this. How would you like to be? Fit, casual-fit? Let's say casual-fit. Anything with "fit" in it will do.

To be fit you need to eat properly, do sports and have a decent life style in general.

First, you need to stop eating junk! You need to replace it with healthy foods! For example you can replace cookies with apples and soda with tea. That works if you buy the right apples and the right tea. These can be mighty delicious if you know how to pick them! Second, you need to eat less (or the same) but more often! Let's say you eat nine sandwiches per day, three sandwiches three times per day. Change it! Eat two at breakfast, three at lunch and two at dinner with one in between. Your body will learn that food is always there and it won't stockpile anymore.

You need to do sports in order to burn excess calories. Sports can mean many things: sure it can mean going to the gym but it can also mean playing with a ball in your private yard, dancing by yourself in your room, running around with your dog or biking to the grocery shop. There are many options. Any will do.

Last, you need to stop worrying or at least worry less, stress does not help.

We're here for you!

 

[hoppybunny]

@ScaredCutter So you're fat and you don't like this. How would you like to be? Fit, casual-fit? Let's say casual-fit. Anything with "fit" in it will do.

To be fit you need to eat properly, do sports and have a decent life style in general.

First, you need to stop eating junk! You need to replace it with healthy foods! For example you can replace cookies with apples and soda with tea. That works if you buy the right apples and the right tea. These can be mighty delicious if you know how to pick them! Second, you need to eat less (or the same) but more often! Let's say you eat nine sandwiches per day, three sandwiches three times per day. Change it! Eat two at breakfast, three at lunch and two at dinner with one in between. Your body will learn that food is always there and it won't stockpile anymore.

You need to do sports in order to burn excess calories. Sports can mean many things: sure it can mean going to the gym but it can also mean playing with a ball in your private yard, dancing by yourself in your room, running around with your dog or biking to the grocery shop. There are many options. Any will do.

Last, you need to stop worrying or at least worry less, stress does not help.

We're here for you!

Completely agree with this. Alot of ppl say calories in calories out is most important, but choosing the right calories is definitely more helpful than just not eating.



Also 3 10 minute walks after each meal are good ways to slowly introduce exercise into your life without it feeling like exercise.

If you don't want to go outside for any reason similar to me, i tend just walk in a circle in my room while watching something and I'm saving up for a walking pad which is also another alternative.

 

[lawlietsph]

I feel you on this, I really do. I'm not sure how much extra weight you have, but maybe you should get checked for insulin resistance. There are other possible causes, like hormonal diseases, and thyroid problems.
I am the same, I cannot stop eating because I feel hungry 24/7, no matter how much food is in my belly, and I crave chocolate like hell. For me, it's a combination of insulin resistance and PCOS.
Do you have any other symptoms?

 

[Grav]

The only thing that works for me is calorie counting. My mom did so many of the specialty diets and they didn't do anything. I've taken ozempic and have switched to mounjaro; neither of which is a miracle shot and it doesn't help with eating outside of hunger (emotional, bored, etc). The good thing about counting is I can eat whatever but have to count it, which leads to looking at foods more closely and realizing what is what. Example: a mcdonalds filet-o-fish is about 4.5 bananas calorie wise. So if counting then a single banana would be a better choice for filling up. I also work out 5+ days/week, this is all to get out of the diabetic window. Dietician is probably the best start though.

 

[Dejected 55]

Sometimes we aren't as fat as we think... that's part of the issue with people (usually women) who become anorexic... they stop being able to see themselves as they really are, and convince themselves they are fat when they are way too skinny. But I digress...

When I was a kid I thought I was always fat... but when I look back at those old pictures and I think about what I weighed back then... I was 180-200 lbs at 6' tall as an older teenager and I thought I was fat but in reality, I was at my ideal weight back then and I didn't see myself that way. As an adult I have topped 300 lbs several times... been up to around 330lbs at my heaviest... in my 30s I was down to 180 again and that's when I first realized that I had not been fat as a teenager like I thought I was at the time. It was eye opening a bit.

Semi-related... but honestly, people treat me the same no matter what my weight has been. I get along with people, but women are never attracted to me. True when I'm overweight, and true when I'm in really good shape. So, it isn't my physical appearance that has ever really been the problem.

I've been losing weight again, semi-purposely and semi the result of being in hospitals for weeks... down under 290 again... might keep losing, who knows. But my self-image and self-worth is not tied to it... just some things are physically easier for me to do when I weigh less so that's a plus in favor of me losing weight.

I guess the short version of what I'm saying here is... try and look at yourself honestly. Don't let society at large or any specific person make you feel fat. And even if you truly look at yourself objectively and think you are fat and even if you actually are overweight... decide for yourself if its a health issue or if you just want to lose weight for yourself... but don't tie your self-image or self-worth or self-confidence to it... just think of it like combing your hair or something... a thing that may make you feel better about yourself but isn't the end-all be-all of your existence... and some days you might want to eat a little and not comb your hair... and other days you might want to eat less, exercise a bit, and comb your hair. Let it all be that trivial and then however you look, you will feel better in your own skin and that will do wonders for your spirit. I promise you that.

 

[Bruce]

Also 3 10 minute walks after each meal are good ways to slowly introduce exercise into your life without it feeling like exercise.

I did not know that. Many thanks!! I also heard that eating vertical and not going horizontal after a meal is advised.

Anyways I will try to add that to my life routine. Maybe if I will ever be stable enough (psychologically speaking) I will get a dog so we can both go for a walk on the beach after meals. I had one when I was younger and she sure helped a lot by "forcing" me to walk her. In truth, it was great going around the park with her. : )

I crave chocolate like hell

I feel you! When I'm at my mum's I always scavenge around for some, I know she has plenty. I keep my place empty of chocolate though. I buy a load of fruit to replace it. Today I went and I got apples, oranges, pineapple cans and a fruit mix can and mum gave me some bananas. Some of them were on discount so I bought a lot. I put them in the fridge because I like to eat them cold. Tomorrow I will feast on "allegedly" healthy fruit.

according to chatgpt

You people listen to that horseshit? How do you know he's telling the truth? You don't! Be Smart, Do Your Own Research!

 

[PI3.14]

You people listen to that horseshit? How do you know he's telling the truth? You don't! Be Smart, Do Your Own Research!

I don't take it as a fact

But I can't deny that I crave savory food way less when I'm drinking my electrolytes drink.

I would have seen a dietitian to confirm this if I had the money, but I'm broke, also I'm doing good with the diet so I don't feel that I need to.

 

[Bruce]

I don't take it as a fact

But I can't deny that I crave savory food way less when I'm drinking my electrolytes drink.

I would have seen a dietitian to confirm this if I had the money, but I'm broke, also I'm doing good with the diet so I don't feel that I need to.

You don't have to see a dietitian or a nutritionist, you can do research and then test. And yes, water helps. You can also try water with protein shake. It helps a bit more.

 

[PI3.14]

You don't have to see a dietitian or a nutritionist, you can do research and then test. And yes, water helps. You can also try water with protein shake. It helps a bit more.

I do drink protein shake actually, mixed in water ofc

 

[eternaldeath]

i just looked at myself from my camera and im so fat, i just cant believe it anymore, i thought i was losing some weight but no, IM FAT. i dont want to go on a scale, i cant even be on a fucking diet for even 10 mintues, i cant even exercise, i ant do anything. im a huge fucking slob, i eat junk food and i cant even slow down when i eat, i cant even gain a normal eating habit. i literally look like im a few months preg, im so fucking hideous. i wish i could go back in time and still be in the position where i stopped eating and ate so much less, i lost weight and it was noticeable for me, i felt cold and dizzy some times but omg i need to go back, IM SO FUCKING UGLY. my weight is my biggest insecurity (no pun), ive struggled with self image for SO LONG, THIS IS THE WORST HTING EVER. ill never love myself because my weight is always going up, i binged ate during lockdown and just gained everything back, i did it again around a year or 2 ago and nothings changed, im getting fat and NOTHING WORKS. i want ozempics, i want surgery to lose all this weight. there is ozempics in the hosue but its only for my dad. i used to go on edtwt and try copy peoples habit and days of calories to eat and foods/drinks to avoid and i cant stop falling back into being a fatass. all i see in my life is thin people, im jealous of every girl i see. i HATE beign fat, im scared of obsesity, im scared of getting an apron stomach, im gonna look like my mum next, visible double chin my dad, stomach that hangs over and the fat on his arms looks like its melting. i cant STAND this body no more, i hate my eating habits. i NEED and WANT to be restricted of food and forced to exercise, IM SO UGLY AND FAT. I WISH I DIDNT EXIST SO I COULD NEVER EAT. why am i built to just eat and eat, im always hugnry and this is the worst shit for me. i wish i had a fast metabolism like my brother, im cursed with this slow one that does JACK SHIT. my mum said id lose weight from puberty eventually, yeah im 18 and it has NEVER CAME, i hate liars. i wish my stomach couldnt handle food, i wish i could just NEVER eat.

crying from it because this weight affects me so bad, I HATE IT, i hate myself, i wish i just kepot eating less, i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE EATING.

NO amount of positivty will help me feel better, im fat and ugly and i know it, NOBODY will change that mindset for me until i lose weight and become thin. i can only somewhat like my body because of my boyfriend, other than that IM A HUGE FUCKING SLOB

well if you just keep saying you can't then nothing will change.... you can cry about your weight forever and nothing will change it unless you actually put work into it... i also think that having a disordered mindset about it will not help you and you should moreso focus on like a healthier way to lose weight because you will fall back into those bad habits if you push yourself too hard to restrict. instead of thinking like "I hate myself so much I wanna die I hate everything" it'd probably be better to ease yourself into a mindset like "I want to be better for myself so that I can live comfortably" and put work in like that. i know its easier said then done and i probably sound really stupid but that's just how I see things as a person looking in. Im much more of a do as I say, not as i do person because I tend to think like how you do a lot but i know thinking like how you are right now isn't going to help you progress.

 

[sanctionedusage]

just dropping in, if you end up calorie counting, use cronometer and make sure youre hitting all your micronutrients. you can even start tracking without dieting and see if youre undereating something. a looot of deficiencies cause endless cravings. magnesium, calcium, vit d, and macros like protein or fat. fiber is also extremely important. focus on *eating enough* of the right things to fill these bars up and THEN see what else you want to eat— usually not gonna be very much, let alone very much junk, after you fulfill all of your vitamins, minerals, omega 3:6, and fiber/protein/fat. using this mentality prevents ed symptoms which you might already have.