Venting i’m going to end up a failure and I know it

[ryders]

I am expecting myself to fail at trying to make something of myself. I know i'm young and still have a lot of time, but I just can't help but to doubt i'll become more than what I am right now. I've always been terrible in school. Even if something were so simple, i've always just put my head down and throwing insults at myself for being so stupid compared to my classmates and friends at the time..nothings changed. Every one of my friends are gifted, smart, and quick. I'm so far behind and I tried so hard to keep up but mind gets lost each time and GOD do I feel so stupid. I don't know how I had the nerve to even consider medical school, I can't even do a simple math problem without becoming frustrated. I don't know what to do, I don't know where i'll end up, but I know i'll end up disappointing for sure.

Anyways ty for reading this rant about me being slow lol