I'm going to end it on Wednesday (25th May)

[whywhywhy]

The close friend I mentioned in earlier post is getting incarcerated on 10th of June. Seems like I'll pull the plug around then. I've no other people like him left really. This world is full of snakes and fuckers, no real people around. Just sleepwalking zombies with no capability to think independently or to use their eyes to see what kind of world they live in. Corrupt, inverted, satanic and straight up insane society. It's funny how it just goes on and everyone is like it's normal.

Facts don't matter, 1+1=3 if authorities or mainstream media say so. I'm questioning the theory that we've evolved from apes. We've evolved from sheep, who somehow act even less intelligently than apes despite being more "intelligent". Show people straight facts that disprove their beliefs: OH NO! ERROR! Brain malfunction has occurred! I can't be wrong! CODE RED: Must turn on cognitive dissonance to level 100%. BEEP BOOP.

It's hilarious to look at what all kind of shit people do around daily only because everyone else does it, ways of behaving, talking and thinking. Like go ask around literally anything from anybody, why they do a thing of any sort. "Oh, I don't know everyone else does it too". Like you're a kid, you ask you parents so many damn questions about why is society like this? And the parent's answer is always: "We'll you know it's just how it is and has always been". Getting questionable orders that one with a conscience and a working brain could disobey? Oh no I can't be left out of my insane herd, I'll do it.

Oh the governments are fucking us straight up in the ass with no lubrication? "Yeah well if we just obey and act submissive, maybe they'll stop doing it some day, surely right? Surely my ass will be fine soon. I must say it's not nice, the items that are entering my rear end get bigger by the day, maybe if I act even more submissive they'll stop it!"

This is how a lot of people think and act. It's ridiculous how there's 8 billion of us, and a bunch of psychopaths can just divide and conquer and make us fight with each other, not seeing the real enemy. Crazy world.

Again I'm kind to strangers and other people, I'm polite and help without asking, but got damn how much I hate most of the people on this planet who're unable to think for themselves and just blindly obey, and do anything authorities tell. It's amazing how easy it is to control the human mind when you brainwash it from early age, then later on bomb them with constant fear with mainstream media and they lose their rationality and boom: Mass Psychosis.

I'm insane myself too, I am a human after all, but what an interesting species we are. You guys wait and see. I never want to, or will encourage anyone to CTB, but I'll give you a forewarning right now. If you think the last 2 years have been aids, it's just the beginning. By 2030 at last you'll be royally fucked. I don't personally have faith in this humanity waking up to it's slavery.

Sorry for my childish language, but Fuck society.

A little tinfoil rant.

Imo the reason why so many people are OK with living like a sheep and support the current status and politics with a glimpse of a though of their own is because that kind of personality is an evolutionary trait that has developed throughout history.

Life is long and the only way to cope with this shit is to have a personlaity that doesnt make you question life because once you do you realize life is boring and that you are surrounded by braindead society.

 

[its-about-time]

Hey, don't drag snakes into it, I like snakes! They are neat and not self aware like the human pieces of shit you described.

We exist out there. I think your description of "civilization" is on par with my own. If your final reason to ctb is being alone in this perspective, it's misguided in my opinion, but who am I to say anything differently? Part of me wants to stick around through a whole lifetime just to watch the world happen. To watch either a massive implosion of civilization, or an even more profound dystopia develop. Just sit back and watch. Not sure it's worth staying here that long, but whatever, I'm not deciding that right now. Enjoy the fuck out of your friend until the 10th.

 

[Doombox]

I think it's such a crapfest because it's our emotions that are driving the metaphorical car...our rational minds are in the passenger seat.

 

[LucyB]

The close friend I mentioned in earlier post is getting incarcerated on 10th of June. Seems like I'll pull the plug around then. I've no other people like him left really. This world is full of snakes and fuckers, no real people around. Just sleepwalking zombies with no capability to think independently or to use their eyes to see what kind of world they live in. Corrupt, inverted, satanic and straight up insane society. It's funny how it just goes on and everyone is like it's normal.

Facts don't matter, 1+1=3 if authorities or mainstream media say so. I'm questioning the theory that we've evolved from apes. We've evolved from sheep, who somehow act even less intelligently than apes despite being more "intelligent". Show people straight facts that disprove their beliefs: OH NO! ERROR! Brain malfunction has occurred! I can't be wrong! CODE RED: Must turn on cognitive dissonance to level 100%. BEEP BOOP.

It's hilarious to look at what all kind of shit people do around daily only because everyone else does it, ways of behaving, talking and thinking. Like go ask around literally anything from anybody, why they do a thing of any sort. "Oh, I don't know everyone else does it too". Like you're a kid, you ask you parents so many damn questions about why is society like this? And the parent's answer is always: "We'll you know it's just how it is and has always been". Getting questionable orders that one with a conscience and a working brain could disobey? Oh no I can't be left out of my insane herd, I'll do it.

Oh the governments are fucking us straight up in the ass with no lubrication? "Yeah well if we just obey and act submissive, maybe they'll stop doing it some day, surely right? Surely my ass will be fine soon. I must say it's not nice, the items that are entering my rear end get bigger by the day, maybe if I act even more submissive they'll stop it!"

This is how a lot of people think and act. It's ridiculous how there's 8 billion of us, and a bunch of psychopaths can just divide and conquer and make us fight with each other, not seeing the real enemy. Crazy world.

Again I'm kind to strangers and other people, I'm polite and help without asking, but got damn how much I hate most of the people on this planet who're unable to think for themselves and just blindly obey, and do anything authorities tell. It's amazing how easy it is to control the human mind when you brainwash it from early age, then later on bomb them with constant fear with mainstream media and they lose their rationality and boom: Mass Psychosis.

I'm insane myself too, I am a human after all, but what an interesting species we are. You guys wait and see. I never want to, or will encourage anyone to CTB, but I'll give you a forewarning right now. If you think the last 2 years have been aids, it's just the beginning. By 2030 at last you'll be royally fucked. I don't personally have faith in this humanity waking up to it's slavery.

Sorry for my childish language, but Fuck society.

A little tinfoil rant.

Yoooo... I'm pretty sure we live in a world where 80% of people are actual robots. No matter how bad it gets people not only have faith in the government and mainstream media they will cuss you all the way out for even disagreeing with it. And when they all started wearing those ridiculous masks on their faces I knew there was no hope. There's no way that real people are so easily controlled.

 

[Fengshuiside]

I feel the same way. I'm definitely a libertarian. I feel like if I were to live for a few more decades I'd live to see a spectacular collapse of the US as a major role in the world. Yknow once the giant bubble pops? This kind of economic environment is what portends the fall of empires. I'm sure you understand. And once that happens people get more comfortable with more government control until the government finally breaks from the chains of the constitution. And people don't question authority like you said. I'm very glad I won't get to live through it.

Lmao, to be honest, I realized what was going on in May 2020, and I was like lmao this will be over in 6 months, shit's so obvious. I told all my friends what's gonna happen, step by step. Well they just though I was nuts. Well guess fucking what, every step that I talked about has happened, well not every but so many that I warned them about before hand. Yet their reaction is still "well idk". Lul.

This may sound sadistic or whatever, but I've kept myself alive the past 2 years, because I've got so pissed off at people's cognitive dissonance that I wanted to witness how insane people will go and lose their minds and how ridiculous the news will get and how far people are still going to believe everything they're told. And holy shit it's 10x worse than my expectations. It's funny in a way, like the MSM is literally trolling and laughing at people, like the things on the news are so hilarious that at this point I'm just thinking they're going for the memes and want to see what kind of obvious bullshit people are ready to believe.

It's definitely the hardest thing in the world for people to accept they're wrong about something. I've researched so deep into this, and no like alien-type tinfoil shit, actual factual proof, showed it to my friends and family, you can guess if they could take in any information or facts I shared, because they only listen to news. Got damn.

This is a clown planet. Gladly I don't have to witness the worst. I've seen enough, by 2030 we're living in a global chinese like control society, or this system as we know will start to crumble down.

Yoooo... I'm pretty sure we live in a world where 80% of people are actual robots. No matter how bad it gets people not only have faith in the government and mainstream media they will cuss you all the way out for even disagreeing with it. And when they all started wearing those ridiculous masks on their faces I knew there was no hope. There's no way that real people are so easily controlled.

I'll be honest, I fucking don't trust people one bit. History repeats itself, humanity is not a race, it's a living mental illness that never heals. It's going to happen again. I know my neighbor, my close friends and even parents in ten years are ready to send me to a camp because I didn't go along this bullshit from the beginning, and wouldn't go with it later either. People are crazy. Humanity should be a mental illness listed in the DSM.

Hey, don't drag snakes into it, I like snakes! They are neat and not self aware like the human pieces of shit you described.

We exist out there. I think your description of "civilization" is on par with my own. If your final reason to ctb is being alone in this perspective, it's misguided in my opinion, but who am I to say anything differently? Part of me wants to stick around through a whole lifetime just to watch the world happen. To watch either a massive implosion of civilization, or an even more profound dystopia develop. Just sit back and watch. Not sure it's worth staying here that long, but whatever, I'm not deciding that right now. Enjoy the fuck out of your friend until the 10th.

Thanks man, as I answered just above, I've been doing the same, and trust me I'm not gonna cbt only because of this. My mental and life situation in general are fucked beyond repair. I don't fit in society, I don't survive here, I don't enjoy it here, I don't want to be here. I've been very seriously mentally ill since a kid, I wanted to kill myself since I was 5.

The fact I at one point realized I live in a world like this just made the decision final. It's hilarious how "normal" people mock mentally ill people like me for being weak, and they watch a couple fear mongering news for days on end and go in a literal psychosis lmao. People truly are funny creatures.

 

[whatevs]

I'm in a similar boat. I already had no place in society before the Covid Hoax/Plandemic was rolled out, but I had some ambitions and hopes for the future. Then, after witnessing people in my country cheering for the police from their balconies as they brutally subdued a young woman for "breaking quarantine rules", I knew for sure, without one atom of doubt, that I was on borrowed time. Out of place, in a nightmare world.

I kinda decided that just wanted to stick around and see the world burn, which isn't particularly admirable, but what can you do if you tried your whole life to warn people and you find out that THEY are the problem, and not just the occult controllers of society?

 

[Fengshuiside]

I'm in a similar boat. I already had no place in society before the Covid Hoax/Plandemic was rolled out, but I had some ambitions and hopes for the future. Then, after witnessing people in my country cheering for the police from their balconies as they brutally subdued a young woman for "breaking quarantine rules", I knew for sure, without one atom of doubt, that I was on borrowed time. Out of place, in a nightmare world.

I kinda decided that just wanted to stick around and see the world burn, which isn't particularly admirable, but what can you do if you tried your whole life to warn people and you find out that THEY are the problem, and not just the occult controllers of society?

Well put.
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Last night I was really close to doing it. I'm getting very tired, but I'm trying to hang around until this week's sunday(5th) at least.

The urge and thirst to tie the rope around my neck and hang myself is getting stronger each day. It's my new friend who I'm staying strong for rn. We'll see how things go.

 

[Fengshuiside]

Well. It's Friday now.

I have pushed over a month further than what I was originally supposed to. I still have regretted each day I've lived more than the previous. I've spent all my money on getting high and I've also messed up my credit and financial status so I'm in big trouble soon anyways.

I've been prolonging it, because I don't necessarily have a burning passion to do it in the first place. There are so many things I wanted to do in life that I won't be able to do now, but I've come to accept it. Let's put it this way, I would like to live in a better functioning body and brain, but this one's so doomed I'm not afraid to end it.

I wasn't originally supposed to tell anyone except my family with a note, but I half-accidentally told the truth to my friends because I've been waiting around too long and people could tell from my behavior that everything's not well and they got worried. So I explained why I've been the way I've been recently.

Hopefully at least a couple people will realize it's something they can't change or fix and that they'll blame themselves less for it, now that they know my condition. My reasons aren't light, but it's not my intention to cause more suffering around me than I already have either.

I've had a decent life after all. I'm glad I had the family I had, I'm glad I met the people I met, I just personally fucked it all up irreversibly. Got unlucky, but also made really bad decisions, I owe it all. This story won't have a happy ending.

You can probably read between the lines what I'm trying to say here.

 

[Fengshuiside]

This will be my final last message, I didn't go through with it this morning like I thought I would, because it wasn't the right time yet.

Sorry to disappoint you again >:(

But worry not, because this time I've properly set up everything in my personal life, so that I'll have 1 more week left at best with no possibility to change my mind. And I mean it. I wiped and reset my laptop and pc. My credit and finances are ruined and I won't have the money to pay my rent or food soon.

I'm enjoying life the best I can and it's not that bad! I don't treat my situation as seriously as others. It's because I don't care anymore. I've gone mad! My life is just a meme to me at this point. I'm treating it like an abstract piece of art. I'm an artist.

However, I'm still trying my best to minimize the trauma/negative impact my plans might have on people close to me. Sucks for them, but I can't keep on living forever just because my death would make some people sad. Ludicrous.

 

[Doombox]

This will be my final last message, I didn't go through with it this morning like I thought I would, because it wasn't the right time yet.

Sorry to disappoint you again >:(

But worry not, because this time I've properly set up everything in my personal life, so that I'll have 1 more week left at best with no possibility to change my mind. And I mean it. I wiped and reset my laptop and pc. My credit and finances are ruined and I won't have the money to pay my rent or food soon.

I'm enjoying life the best I can and it's not that bad! I don't treat my situation as seriously as others. It's because I don't care anymore. I've gone mad! My life is just a meme to me at this point. I'm treating it like an abstract piece of art. I'm an artist.

However, I'm still trying my best to minimize the trauma/negative impact my plans might have on people close to me. Sucks for them, but I can't keep on living forever just because my death would make some people sad. Ludicrous.

Please don't think that any of us are disappointed in you. I hope you will be ok, whatever you decide to do.