Im going to do it.

[sleepforever81]

I'm at this point again in my life that I just want the pain to stop. So called friends think I'm doing it for attention, but I am really not. I just want to die, I'm lonely, really unhappy, ugly and as much I tried to be normal I can't. I decided I'm going to hang myself later today, either full suspension or partial after iv got pissed and relaxed myself with some tramadol.

 

[Zeus35]

Are you ok? Would you like to talk? :-)

 

[Carlotta16]

I'm at this point again in my life that I just want the pain to stop. So called friends think I'm doing it for attention, but I am really not. I just want to die, I'm lonely, really unhappy, ugly and as much I tried to be normal I can't. I decided I'm going to hang myself later today, either full suspension or partial after iv got pissed and relaxed myself with some tramadol.

I can understand how you feel when you say people think it's for attention. I have the same people that think the same in my life. Its so bloody unfair that it is so difficult and I don't know bout you but people just don't take it seriously anymore. I have had failed attempts and people think that because it didn't happen completely that it was just a cry for help. But it's not it's the fact that it is so bloody hard to ctb effectively. I'm around all day today if you need to chat or anything. I'm in the UK so it's day time here.

 

[sleepforever81]

Talking is rather pointless, people just say it will get better, it does briefly, then it's back to square one.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I understand that it can be hard to carry on when everything is hopeless. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Foresight]

I wish you comfort whatever happens.

 

[Weebster]

I'm at this point again in my life that I just want the pain to stop. So called friends think I'm doing it for attention, but I am really not. I just want to die, I'm lonely, really unhappy, ugly and as much I tried to be normal I can't. I decided I'm going to hang myself later today, either full suspension or partial after iv got pissed and relaxed myself with some tramadol.

What would the effects
of 10 tramadol be?

Also how many would you advise i take before jumping? I would need to walk a mile at least from the parking area to the bridge. Taking the pills on the bridge isn't possible

 

[Carlotta16]

What would the effects
of 10 tramadol be?

Also how many would you advise i take before jumping? I would need to walk a mile at least from the parking area to the bridge. Taking the pills on the bridge isn't possible

I think you would need alot more than 10 tramadol to actually be fatal. I do know most people who OD on tramadol experience seizures so you would need to leave yourself enough time to get to the bridge and climb the barrier.

 

[Weebster]

I think you would need alot more than 10 tramadol to actually be fatal. I do know most people who OD on tramadol experience seizures so you would need to leave yourself enough time to get to the bridge and climb the barrier.

So take 2 to take the edge off while I walk to the bridge? How do you prevent the nausea?

 

[Carlotta16]

So take 2 to take the edge off while I walk to the bridge? How do you prevent the nausea?

I've never suffered from nausea with tramadol but you could always take travel sickness meds to help as you would be moving. Why is it that you can't take any of them on the bridge?

 

[Weebster]

I've never suffered from nausea with tramadol but you could always take travel sickness meds to help as you would be moving. Why is it that you can't take any of them on the bridge?

I don't have time to loiter. This isn't a bridge you can hang out at.

 

[Carlotta16]

I don't have time to loiter. This isn't a bridge you can hang out at.

I understand that totally.
I have a bridge literally 50 yards from my house thats over water and land but its a known suicide spot so they track people on the cameras on there every second

 

[Weebster]

I understand that totally.
I have a bridge literally 50 yards from my house thats over water and land but its a known suicide spot so they track people on the cameras on there every second

What do the cameras accomplish? You could just jump if you see a guard coming

 

[Carlotta16]

What do the cameras accomplish? You could just jump if you see a guard coming

They have stepped up the patrols cos last year they had to close the walkways on the bridge cos they had 6 people jump in the space of a month, 2 literally within hours of each other. None of them survived. They also have charity workers that patrol the bridge to talk to people that they think might need help

 

[S like Siren]

I just want to die, I'm lonely, really unhappy, ugly and as much I tried to be normal I can't. I decided I'm going to hang myself later today

I feel exactly like you right now...all i want is hurt myself to death

 

[sleepforever81]

Can't seem to hang myself, too painful and my head feels like it's going to explode. I'm using a belt in the kneeling position. I really want to die, I have to go through with it, otherwise so called friends will be saying that I'm doing it for attention again.

I think you would need alot more than 10 tramadol to actually be fatal. I do know most people who OD on tramadol experience seizures so you would need to leave yourself enough time to get to the bridge and climb the barrier.

I have around 242 50mg if tramadol for backup if I can't get my first option to work.