NSFW I'm going to die from excessive masturbation!

[Crematoryy]

My heart is aching as I write this. How long has it been? Two years since I first announced this would happen? This cardiovascular pain will kill me. Throughout my life I've had to resort to pornography and masturbation to have even the slightest sexual contact with women. It's always been lonely; no one has ever loved me; no one even knows I exist. I think when I finish writing I'll call an ambulance. My loneliness will be the cause of my pain. My addiction was a coping mechanism for the emptiness, for the suffering. Every day I wished I had someone by my side. I dreamed of it. Maybe the world will finally deny me one last time.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Definitely gooning more in my depression

 

[goldenwitch]

What definitely helped me was trying to jerk off exclusively to my thoughts, no external influences allowed. The stimulation remains so you don't get withdrawal symptoms that are too bad but it's a good first step towards getting just a bit better. Though I have my ups and downs I'm definitely waaay better than how I used to be like. And once you actually start masturbating less your soul begins to heal a bit more. Which could allow you to finally find someone to share your life with.

 

[ghost-shock]

What definitely helped me was trying to jerk off exclusively to my thoughts, no external influences allowed. The stimulation remains so you don't get withdrawal symptoms that are too bad but it's a good first step towards getting just a bit better. Though I have my ups and downs I'm definitely waaay better than how I used to be like. And once you actually start masturbating less your soul begins to heal a bit more. Which could allow you to finally find someone to share your life with.

Ive tried this but its just not for me. Thoughts dont get you to finish. Also when someone's inexperienced its extremely difficult to imagine the sensation of human touch and desire when you havent/barely felt it. I literally couldn't imagine human touch in my thoughts when i was a virgin. So it just caused self pleasure to become very frustrating. Some people need physical and visual stimuli to finish. Iam one of those people. If im not getting it physically then im going to have to get it visually.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

What definitely helped me was trying to jerk off exclusively to my thoughts, no external influences allowed. The stimulation remains so you don't get withdrawal symptoms that are too bad but it's a good first step towards getting just a bit better. Though I have my ups and downs I'm definitely waaay better than how I used to be like. And once you actually start masturbating less your soul begins to heal a bit more. Which could allow you to finally find someone to share your life with.

I feel like when you are a porn addict it is just better to go cold turkey for a short while (or fully) then try with thoughts as you would be jacking off to to the material in your head. I have this problem.

 

[PI3.14]

Pornography is bad, really really bad.

It will only intensify your depression. Masturbating is ok though as long as it's not associated with porn.

Something I don't see it talked about much is masturbating to relieve stress, not sure if that's healthy in the long term.

If you're doing it so much, like literally everyday and perhaps multiple times a day, then that's addiction. Try to at least drop the porn, it only makes you more depressed anyways so what's the point of it?

 

[Crematoryy]

You all misunderstood me. I developed a heart condition from excessive cerebral orgasms. Study the physiology of orgasm and you'll see that blood vessels dilate during ecstasy. I did this compulsively for years, and now I'm extremely debilitated. I blame this world for my failure. If it had provided me with a partner, a girlfriend, as it does for other people, I would never have had these problems. I don't know how long I'll last since I'm addicted, and my addiction is leading me to death.

It's definitely not a metaphor, a hyperbole. It's literal.

 

[fadedghost]

You all misunderstood me. I developed a heart condition from excessive cerebral orgasms. Study the physiology of orgasm and you'll see that blood vessels dilate during ecstasy. I did this compulsively for years, and now I'm extremely debilitated. I blame this world for my failure. If it had provided me with a partner, a girlfriend, as it does for other people, I would never have had these problems. I don't know how long I'll last since I'm addicted, and my addiction is leading me to death.

It's definitely not a metaphor, a hyperbole. It's literal.

Did you have any other co-occuring disorders? I've never heard of too many orgasms causing a heart condition. Were you also exercising and eating healthy? It's hard for me to believe. Is there any medical literature showing this can happen?

I feel like the whole "porn is evil and bad for you" is something that pretty and handsome people, who lack empathy for less attractive people, say because of religious reasons, or sometimes religious people just say that because they are indoctrinated into fantasy beliefs about a non-existent spiritual world of make believe.

Pornography is bad, really really bad.

It will only intensify your depression. Masturbating is ok though as long as it's not associated with porn.

Something I don't see it talked about much is masturbating to relieve stress, not sure if that's healthy in the long term.

If you're doing it so much, like literally everyday and perhaps multiple times a day, then that's addiction. Try to at least drop the porn, it only makes you more depressed anyways so what's the point of it?

I disagree with this, having sex with people is a normal part of human existence and when a person isn't having sex, they are going to get depressed no matter what unless they are very old or very religious. Normal people need sex to function normally. For people who are involuntarily celibate, I don't think that if you take away the porn, the result is going to be happiness; the result is just going to be even more misery. A lot of time these anti-porn crusaders just hate that some men and women are willing to take off their clothes for money and it grosses them out; it's a prudish judgemental reaction to empathy for people who are not able to find someone.

 

[GoSan1]

My heart is aching as I write this. How long has it been? Two years since I first announced this would happen? This cardiovascular pain will kill me. Throughout my life I've had to resort to pornography and masturbation to have even the slightest sexual contact with women. It's always been lonely; no one has ever loved me; no one even knows I exist. I think when I finish writing I'll call an ambulance. My loneliness will be the cause of my pain. My addiction was a coping mechanism for the emptiness, for the suffering. Every day I wished I had someone by my side. I dreamed of it. Maybe the world will finally deny me one last time.

As someone whose only wish was to have true love as well, I feel those words of despair and sadness in my heart.
I get that coping mechanism, in just wanting to feel good and have a "feeling" of being shown interest in, even if its fake.

I gave it up to Jesus, I would rather have my wishes be in his hands than seeing them die out.
But my heart still aches and begs for that love...

Sorry for you having to go through this.
Being born to love and forced to stay alone is a curse in itself.

 

[goldenwitch]

I feel like when you are a porn addict it is just better to go cold turkey for a short while (or fully) then try with thoughts as you would be jacking off to to the material in your head. I have this problem.

mm, that might be true, i was never really addicted to porn itself so i didnt know
that sucks, and yea youre probably right, going cold turkey might be better for some people

 

[Nighthawk]

Not judging yourself for doing it can help. And if you catch yourself judging yourself, try not to judge yourself for that either. I know it's easier said than done, but that's often how most addiction cycles work, no matter what the addiction is. We get addicted to something because it temporarily relieves pain, and when we judge ourselves for it, that judgment just creates more emotional pain. Then we feel the need to rely on it even more, and before we know it we're caught in that vicious cycle.

 

[zdeweilx]

Stop gooning bro it's not good for you

 

[Dejected 55]

On the Devil's Advocate angle... if you developed a heart condition because of what orgasms were doing to your body... then your problem isn't the masturbation, but the orgasms... and if you had a partner jerking you off, or having sex with that partner, you'd still be in the same place with the physical ailment.

I'm with you on the being alone and having no other options and all that bit... I live there myself... but just wanted to say that whatever physical situation you're dealing with sounds like it's not because of the masturbation and you'd still have that even if you had a partner all this time.

 

[Crematoryy]

On the Devil's Advocate angle... if you developed a heart condition because of what orgasms were doing to your body... then your problem isn't the masturbation, but the orgasms... and if you had a partner jerking you off, or having sex with that partner, you'd still be in the same place with the physical ailment.

I'm with you on the being alone and having no other options and all that bit... I live there myself... but just wanted to say that whatever physical situation you're dealing with sounds like it's not because of the masturbation and you'd still have that even if you had a partner all this time.

The lack of a sexual/affective partner leads me to compulsive masturbation. You're right to say that even during actual sex, the physiology of orgasm would remain identical, and could even worsen the problem. But the issue here is the excessive frequency with which I masturbate, which would be less with access to "another person." The addiction would never reach lethal proportions if I had a girlfriend. The unmet emotional needs cause psychological frustration, fueling the escapist cycle. I spent countless nights feeling the social pain of loneliness, with elevated neurocerebral cortisol. I'm in the hospital as I write this response.

 

[Dejected 55]

The lack of a sexual/affective partner leads me to compulsive masturbation. You're right to say that even during actual sex, the physiology of orgasm would remain identical, and could even worsen the problem. But the issue here is the excessive frequency with which I masturbate, which would be less with access to "another person." The addiction would never reach lethal proportions if I had a girlfriend. The unmet emotional needs cause psychological frustration, fueling the escapist cycle. I spent countless nights feeling the social pain of loneliness, with elevated neurocerebral cortisol. I'm in the hospital as I write this response.

I promise I'm not diminishing anything else about what you are saying, and I identify with a lot of it. Just wanted to point out earlier that people have died during sex. It's not common, but it happens. A condition like yours likely isn't caused by the excessive masturbation but rather the masturbation revealed an underlying condition. Knowing you have that condition makes it seem like masturbation is what does it, if that triggers it more often... but from the way you've described it, having a regular sexual partner should cause the same reactions in your body and be just as dangerous. You really don't know which one "could" be the fatal one. People who have died from sexual experiences have had conditions very much like yours and just didn't know it.

I would anticipate that orgasms from sex with a loving partner would be more intense and last a little longer than the ones you get from masturbation... so while you might not orgasm as much if you had a partner, the times you do likely will stress your body more. All this is to say, every other aspect of your experience is definitely relatable and real and I wish I had answers that I don't have for myself. Just wanted to alleviate some stress perhaps by letting you know that it isn't likely your masturbation caused your condition... it likely just revealed it, which would also have happened through regular sexual contact with a partner.

 

[finaldestination22]

You all misunderstood me. I developed a heart condition from excessive cerebral orgasms. Study the physiology of orgasm and you'll see that blood vessels dilate during ecstasy. I did this compulsively for years, and now I'm extremely debilitated. I blame this world for my failure. If it had provided me with a partner, a girlfriend, as it does for other people, I would never have had these problems. I don't know how long I'll last since I'm addicted, and my addiction is leading me to death.

It's definitely not a metaphor, a hyperbole. It's literal.

check for GERD or other stomach problems, even helicobacter pylori. If you indeed have a diagnosed heart conditions and you think it is because of that I am sorry to hear but if you've been to a doctor and not got diagnosed might check for stomach issues chronic masturbation causes lots of stomach issues like GERD etc which can cause heartburn and heart palpitations when your actual heart is ok, especially helicobacter pylori

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

If you jerked off to my cosplay pics, does that mean im technically responsible of involuntary manslaughter, or is it only if it was used during the last nut ?