Venting im going to CTB soon

[attheendofthenight_]

I don't have the motivation for anything. I can't do anything. Nobody cares anyways. I told my friend I wanted to kms and she asked me to write down how I was feeling bc she knows I type stuff down better than I write it and then when I'm actually doing it she's fucking making jokes and shit. Which made me feel like she didn't give two fucks that I want to die. So then I couldn't even type anymore. Now she's mad at me because of it. Nobody actually cares until you're dead. I'm gonna throw myself off a bridge or hang myself. Something permanent. I'm a failure and worthless and I don't care about anything anymore. I need it all to be over.

 

[SDB]

When?

 

[Front Back]

I don't have the motivation for anything. I can't do anything. Nobody cares anyways. I told my friend I wanted to kms and she asked me to write down how I was feeling bc she knows I type stuff down better than I write it and then when I'm actually doing it she's fucking making jokes and shit. Which made me feel like she didn't give two fucks that I want to die. So then I couldn't even type anymore. Now she's mad at me because of it. Nobody actually cares until you're dead. I'm gonna throw myself off a bridge or hang myself. Something permanent. I'm a failure and worthless and I don't care about anything anymore. I need it all to be over.

So sad to hear that, hopefully you find peace.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

That was probably her way of trying to lighten your mood. It obviously didn't work. But that could be why she was doing it. If she's your friend, she definitely wouldn't want you to hurt yourself. She probably didn't know what else to do.